Manifestation (4)

 Alhamdulillahhirabbila'lamin (all praises to the Almighty Allah, the creator of the universe)

The last manifestation was back in January 2023 (read here). I manifested 3 out of 5 and the other 2 is in progress insyaAllah.

1. A trip abroad with the kids. We took the kids to Thailand early this year. We went to Hatyai and Koh Lipe
2. Increased sedeqah jariah. Been donating to all the charities in support of Palestinians' causes.
3. Travel wish Europe, UK, Uzbek - We went to Uzbek last year in June and insyaAllah, we will travel to UK this year on Christmas.
4. I still struggle with Tahajjud but alhamdulillah, the Ramadhan sahur schedule is still intact. I managed to wake up earlier for a short Tahajjud before Fajr with my husband
5. With regards to retirement savings, it is still in progress. I am automating my monthly savings but I wish to save more this year. 

That's the update from my last manifestation list. Its the end of the business day and I am still in the office thinking about what do I want to achieve other than the 2 mentioned above.

1. I want to go to Hajj as soon as I am able. The priority is to  deposit more money into my Tabung Haji Savings. Increase cash savings to 100K by 2025.

2. Because I already made plan for a 16 days trip to UK, it doesn't feel right to plan for another one before letting the first one completed successfully first. Just a self created stumbling block. But I did discuss a few other destinations with my husband. Switzerland is high on the list as well as the Maldives and other parts of Indonesia.

3. I want to be a qualified Company Secretary (CS). It is another branch within my current department. 

4. Bowl my first 200. I've been training but I have not been improving much. I need to train more.

5. Be a kinder and more loving person

I am struggling to list down the above today. I take it as a good thing. Nothing much matters these days. There are civil unrest, wars and famine everywhere. If only I can manifest freedom for Palestine and world peace. Might as well put it on the list.

6. Free Palestine and world peace!

Gratitude, Visualize. Manifest!

Thinking Out Loud

Its been awhile. I had a good conversation with my husband last weekend. But then again, they are just passionate discussion about the current state of Malaysian's transportation infrastructure. I was thinking out aloud as to the many interesting places that tourist can visit in Malaysia if it is being packaged correctly. We have beautiful mosques, historical places and amazing food scenes all over Malaysia. Most tourists would just end up in KLCC and Genting Highlands when Malaysia has so much more to offer.

It gave me the idea to become a tour operator but the traffic condition and transportations options in Malaysia is just not ideal. I could however start small. Cater for a small family instead of a bus load of passengers with fussy needs just to try out. Is this my calling? In hospitality? I'm not hospitable nor warm but I am a traveler and I love Malaysia. When I go through the app WithLocals, i realised that the trait that needed to be a good travel guide is lacking in me. I don't have to be a good travel guide is friendliness, sensitivity and hospitability. I know my strength and weakness. So that's that.

Yesterday, a colleague confided in me and told me that she is considering to take an offer by a competitor. A smaller yet stable competitor. She wants to strengthen her capabilities and gained more experience and just be better. She still has that wants but not me. It makes me wonder, is there something wrong with me for not wanting what she wants?

Its not that I am afraid to make a change. Its just that I feel there is no need for it. I am quite happy where I am. I don't need more than this to be happy. Is it wrong to be contend? My company is one of the best engineering and construction company in Malaysia. I am just happy to be part of the team. 

I guess different person has different need to be happy in life.

Syawal

Its the 6th day of Syawal. I am currently back in office. A lot of work waiting, pending, haunting. The mood is truly grim but trying to make the best of it. 

Noteworthy updates other than Raya stuff is that Iran launched an attack to Israel. Although its performative, it enlighten us of our real friends and foe. Jordan and Egypt both intercepted Iran's missiles. Does it not show their stand on this war? Such 2 faced hypocrites. Houthis in Yemen did launch their own missiles into Israel. 

The Israel's paper on 12 April declares that Israel has lost the war. Yet, Palestinians are still not allowed to go home. Many was forcefully evacuated. 

All my worries and problems seems so small compared to what our brothers and sisters in Palestine is going through. 

Although we had a happy Syawal this year, it seems less sweet. Every endevour seems less meaningful these days. I feel like the worst is yet to come, but it is coming. The only thing that we have, is Allah almighty to lead us the way.

May all of us be worthy enough to obtain His guidance to get through all of this. 

Preparing For Ramadhan 2024

Here in Malaysia, Ramadhan falls on 12 March 2024 which is tomorrow. I am very excited eventhough i am still having a tiny spot of menses. Hopefully, I get to fast tomorrow! InsyaAllah.

So far, 2024 has been a busy year. Many court cases from various business units had to be attended to. Penang's matter has been especially troublesome. As I like to make the best of the worst situation, I managed to spend some time with my parents in Penang last weekend. It was short but super fulfilling. Hopefully, all these busy-ness makes the time flew faster as I have a very special plan at the end of this year. Mum's the word.

Relationship with Eddy has been great as always. We talked a lot because we know that communication is key. He makes it so easy for me. We spent a lot of time at the bowling alley this year. That has been a blast! He rarely complaint and absolutely helpful around the house. Alhamdulillah for the blessings.

The kids in the meantime have been a bit of a headache but as long as Eddy and I are on the same page, I'm sure we will overcome this.

The main aim this Ramadhan is to be close to Allah and His forgiveness as well as blessings. I know that without His blessings, my life would be meaningless. When I was in Penang with my parents last weekend, I even set the intention to spend a few days of Ramadhan in the year 2026 in Mecca/Madinah. Perhaps I will include this intention in my many many do'a throughout this blessed Ramadhan. 

Let's not forget Gaza. Their situation is not improving. Many died due to starvation and malnutrition. I pray that Allah makes it easy for them this Ramadhan. I pray that a ceasefire will come through soon. May Allah help all of them. Ameen

 

2024

Today is the 16th day of 2024. A few things to note, the Gen*cide in Gaza is now enters its 100th days. South Africa brought Israel to the International Court of Justice. The killing has not stop. We are still scrolling through the images of bodies under the rubbles, the martyrs buried in mass graves and families in despair due to death and starvation. I pray Allah will grant them ease and liberate them from the Zionist.

I entered my 4series with a cautious feeling. Knowing I am inching closer to the end of my days with still very little good deeds and ibadah to show my Lord on judgment days. Therefore, my aim for this year is to increase my savings in my Tabung Haji so that I get to perform hajj as soon as possible. May Allah invite all of us to His holy lands to perform Hajj and umrah.

Other aim this year is to keep my body active. Eddy and I just equipped ourselves with bowling kits and have been playing regularly. We are hoping to join a league and a few tournaments this year. We are still learning the ropes to be exact but we hope to get serious with it this year. I just won my 1st competition under my company this year. Female Champion! Not too shabby huh?

I manage to close another loan this year. Enough of giving free money to the bank. This saving will be put into my hajj and retirement fund. Dreaming of being able to go for umrah whenever I want after retirement and staying there for however long my heart desires. Yus is currently in Mecca. Feeling so envious and longing to be there again.