Dare to Dream

I joined a bowling competition held by my company last Saturday. The real shocker is that I managed to win the women's individual category. The win made me thought about getting serious in bowling again. My performance I still average but with much practice, I could improve and be better.

Playing for a team and winning for the team give a sense of pride and joy which is unexplained-able. I love the feeling tho. Should I get serious again. Play on a weekly basis and maybe join small competition for the fun of it?

Probably I should just consider. Give it a try for a month and see if my team members are serious as well. Will take it from there

What I am Saving For

Saving should be a lifestyle for everyone because it teaches you to be mindful with the money you have. Saving is also something that most people is struggling with including my self because we have so many wants in our life. When I go out for shopping, I find my self googling for the best of everything i need. The best instant coffee, the best setting spray, the best wet wipes, the best air freshener etc (I sound so vain, I know) simply because I can afford them.

But, I want to save some money for other things like travel and buying a property etc.. Facebook memories reminded me that I was in Amsterdam 3 years ago. I remembered the heartbreak of having less than 12hrs to spend in Amsterdam. I am making a vow to return to Amsterdam soon which means I have to save up some money for the journey. I need at least RM 5K for this.

I am also saving for my haj. My mom made me dump a small fortune in there a few months back and I am supposed to consistently increasing the sum. this should be a priority because we are not sure how long we have in this earth. If we do not focus on pleasing our Creator, what do we say on the day of judgement. Can we tell Him that I have other important thing to prepare for? What is more important than preparing for THAT DAY?

But God also create this live to be enjoyed. If not He would just make everything similar to each other. There is no need to explore etc. Since there is so much to look at, to try and explore, we are given the freedom to choose. Choose to be balanced. Prepare for the Hereafter, but also enjoy the present of Today.

Not sure if I am making any sense. But its just my thoughts for now

Aspirations

Putting it out there in the universe.

I want to live abroad. UK or perhaps Canada. Earning a comfortable living. Enjoying life. What can I offer to the world? What can I share with the world? What is my talent?

I used to be a good friend to many. A wing man to my boyfriends. A shoulder to cry on. Maybe I should start sharing my life experience. What is my major life experiences? Many, since I am older now. I can share about school days. How I strive. The type of work i put on. Is it still relevant?

I can share about relationships. Family dynamic. Friends I had. Will there be anyone interested in all these?

Work experience, interview experience, stress management. Work life balance. 

Family and friends think I am boring. I could be if I want to but I am not really boring in my mind. I have the weirdest and most massive imagination since I was a child. I still talk to my self. I talk to my imaginary world I created in my mind. 

What is my biggest issue? Always feeling unsatisfied with what I have. Being ungrateful. Feeling empty. I sound depress but I dont think I am. I am probably a bit stress and thats it. Should I create a list of topics I wish to share with the world? Could that be my contribution? Will it makes me happy?

I will be so happy if I get to do things I love everyday and get paid for it. So the question is, what do I love to do? Definitely a bit of traveling, experiencing new things, meeting new people. Should I try to live in a new place? See if I like it? Being out of my comfort zone? The process of doing it is something I am not too keen about.

Am I the person who hate hard work? Is it because I feel like I am always working hard and still feel unsatisfied. I know I should always be grateful. Feeling grateful will open more doors for me. Restarting my gratitude journal.