Wednesday, November 18, 2015

Menjauh

Menjauh dari Allah. Menjauh dari segala hal.

Rasa makin menjauh dari semua hal semua benda semua orang. Now aku paling paling malas nak bercakap dgn housemates. They are nice girls a definite blessings from God. but I do not know why, I have less and less interest to talk to them and spend time with them.

Its been awhile since I go back to my hometown. Anna is at home currently. Mom is busy with her business. Dad is minding his own. Yus is pregnant. So I spent most weekends at Wah's since she just had a new baby and mom has not see the baby yet. Its been at least 2 weeks. Its weird but that's mom. She can hold on to grudges forever. I pray that Allah make it easy for her to let go of the past and just move on.

Its also been awhile since I have a meaningful conversation with Ridzuan. Its all mundane and routine questions. There are frictions here and there but nothing serious or major. I found that some of his thoughts are repetitions and they just annoying.

I do not feel lonely tho. I always have friends when I need to talk to someone. I have my work to go to. I have my COC. I have my bed and amazing pillows. Thank God for all of that!

I think I need a bigger bed LOL!

Probably a tatami mattress. Am i losing it??

I hope not