Tuesday, August 15, 2017


Is it wrong to have high expectation? Expecting someone else to be fair to you. Expecting others to treat you as you treat them.

I learned that when you expect so much from someone else, when you put so much hope on others, you will end up being dissapointed. People are naturally selfish. Human is always on their very own survival mode. Not many willing to sacrifice for you. They will always put their need first

When you know that you could not expect too much from others, why do we keep putting hopes on people other than yourself? Sadly, for the time being, I don't have a clever answer to that question.

At this very moment, all I could say is that, putting any hopes on others is such a silly thing to do. People do not care about you. They just care about themselves. Their own survival. Their own happiness.

I guess, when you are used to relying on your selves and expecting nothing from others, you will not worry about being dissapointed or be mad at those other than your selves.

Tuesday, August 8, 2017

List, Listing, Listed, Lists

A few months back I read an article written by the Virgin's Founder Richard Branson whereby he loves making lists and tips of making a good list. Today I further read that making lists help to overcome anxiety and boosts creativity. No wonder I love listing out plans whenever I'm anxious.

Lets make a few short lists for fun!

Lists of food I can cook (coz I'm kinda hungry at the moment)

1. curry - vegies, eggs, chicken, beef
2. soups - same as above
3. pasta - bolognese, marinara, meatballs
4. fried rice/noodles - easy peasy
5. sandwiches - be creative! french toast everything!
6. salads - eggs and potato salad, coleslaw, chicken salad, etc
7. laksa - haven't make this in awhile
8. desserts - give me a recipe and I can do anything
9. sambal tempeh with anchovies - pack full of protein!
10. sambal udang and tempoyak - stinky but owh so good!
11. fritters - potatoes, anchovies, onions. Local snacks.

Lists of places I love in Malaysia

1. Melaka - top of the list. Its small, it has everything for everyone. History, food and culture.
2. TTDI - greenary, lots of good coffee place and so near from my house
3. Cameron Highland - cold climate, tea and fresh fruits and vegetables
4. Petaling Jaya - so many malls, so many awesome makan places, so many choices
5. Islands - Perhentian is the best, then its Tioman.
6. Taiping - the weather is always so romantic.
7. Kuala Lumpur - its a metropolitan. It has everything.  

Monday, August 7, 2017

Plans, Planning, Planners

I love making plans. When I am just struggling with current situation, when the reality is just so hard to swallow, I will make plans.

Financial plans, vacation plans, meal plans, you name it. I will make them all. Normally I do it when I'm bored alone at home. And sometimes I do it when my head is just a pile of mess waiting to explode.

However, sticking to the plan, or executing the plans are a different subject matter altogether. Making plans divert my mind from dealing with the current situation and focusing on the plans, the future, the endless possibilities.

Currently I am a bit worried about making ends meet. My budget for this month and next month is a bit affected. I took up a new insurance policy and they made a huge initial deduction. I also had to send my car for repairs and that also hurt me financially. Everything is supposed to return to normal on September and on November, i will be free from my car loans. I am sooo looking forward to that.

Honestly, I am looking forward to end this year as soon as possible. I think next year will be much much better for me.

Friday, July 28, 2017


Feel so uninspired lately. been hard to be steadfast on anything. Weight loss challenge was a total bust in my opinion. Maybe i loss a bit of weight but it so small that I don't want to even acknowledge it. Finance challenge is a total bust as well eventho my finance is still above water.

I can't wait for this year to end so that I can look forward to a new salary scale, a bonus (maybe) and a lower monthly debt repayment.

Got nothing to look forward to for the next couple of months. Feeling miserable as I am always stressed out at work. Sometimes stressed out at home as well.Thinking of a holiday, most probably in October during Deepavali.

There are many things that I need to do. Important things that I've been putting off. Why I can't just do it??

major car servicing - < 2k (estimated)
emergency funds - 6k

Those are the 2 important thing i should be working on right now. i need a system and i need to stick to it. i should just close 1 eye and transfer out my money to another acc? I should just try that out first kan? I can set aside 600 per month. No big deal. Once i pay off my car loan, I can set aside more than 1k. That is happening hopefully by November.

I hope this foul mood of mind improve soon.

Friday, July 14, 2017

Scared To Be Lonely

Sounds like a lyric to the recent hit song. Oh well... it is

M thinking of travelling but I'm scared of being alone while travelling. I have a travelling partner now, but that friend is not an adventurous type. Can be pushed to doing certain things but got mood swing one. Really prefers staying indoors type of person. Really not suitable if you want to explore and walkabout aimlessly.

I want to see small towns in England. Still... I am crushing on England hard! If I get to migrate or just became an expatriate, England is where I want to go.

I have so many plans in my mind right now. Not just travelling but also making big purchases. My car broke down last Wednesday. Managed to get it fix but since it is an old car, I'm thinking of replacing it with a new one. But it is such a big purchase. Such a waste of money when I already have a good working vehicle.

If I calculated correctly, when I finished a few loans and the hire purchase loan, I would have an extra of more than 1000 per month. Yes, I can afford to buy a new one, but the question is whether I want to or not? I would rather save all that money to travel.

Decision, decision...

Wednesday, May 17, 2017

You Can Make What You Want

So I came across this old video on law of attraction on facebook yesterday. I am not a stranger to this concept. Basically, I believe that you/I can attract anything we think and feel about. You attract what you want and what you don't want depending on which one you are thinking about more.

So today I've decided to go on a trip most probably a solo trip to Europe and may be UK. All I need to think about is that trip. I aim to make it happen in the mid of towards the end of next year. I am researching everything about the places I am going to see and the things I'm going to do.

I want to focus on ma king me happy first.

Thursday, May 11, 2017

Travel Bug

This happens every once in awhile. The feeling of wanting to travel. The urge to just make plans. I'm creating alerts for flights tix to Bali, Amsterdam and UK. I'm looking at my financial and mentally calculating when I could carry out these plans. I'm looking at calendars just to see all the holidays I could utilize.

 I'm hoping I would be rewarded with a year end bonus. That would mean I have enough money to travel sometime early next year. My mom invited me to do umrah in February so, my best bet would be a few months after that coz I cant be taking back to back long leave from work.

So, practically I'm planning to go on leave May next year provided its not yet puasa month. If not, its gonna be August next year. That's a long way to go meaning I have a lot of time to plan and save up.

Should I plan for a solo trip? Never done it before. A bit scary come to think of it. But with proper planning, it should go well. Will it gonna be fun tho? You will only know once you try it right?

Monday, May 8, 2017

Draggy Monday

Had a lazy weekend which was much needed and welcomed. Today, starting the week with boredness. Work was slow and my mind is still thinking of vacation.

Been binging on The Tudors over the weekend. Just looking at the England's landscape made me feel like wanting to return back to England. I miss the cool weather and beautiful scenery. The thing is travelling overseas is so expensive. Flight tix is expensive, accommodation, ground arrangement. But to me, if you plan and manage your travel wisely, you could save much.

Should I make plans to go back to England? It has to be a 2018 plan which is such a looong way to go. Making plans doesn't cost money so why not??

Tuesday, April 25, 2017

Weight Loss Updates

The effort has been fruitful. I manage to down size my clothes from XL to L. My gym operator noticed the change last week. He said that it shows I am burning more than I consume. That was the plan.

Been reducing my portion. Abstaining from fried and oily food. Ate lots of soups, salads, sandwiches and oats whenever I need my carbo. And lots of eggs. Probably had consumed more than 50 eggs this month alone. Hopefully I can be consistent. Its a bit hard to maintain it especially during weekends. But I kept pushing my self. Not allowing my self to miss gym more than 2 days in a row.

Below are photos of my favourite meals:

Grilled cheese sandwich with tomatoes and cucumber

salads with Greek yogurt

salad with boiled eggs and olive oil

stuffed omelet with cheese

granola and oats

sushi. didn't make these obviously

more salad with Greek yogurt

Tuesday, April 18, 2017

Annoyance of the Day

In a dilemma. I might need to pay more for my income tax. is not that I don't have the money, its just on principle, I feel that I have paid more to the government yearly through the periodic salary deduction. Yet, after assessment, I still need to pay more. Its just annoying.

Simply annoying. I should just pay up and get it over with.

Or should i not?

Wednesday, April 12, 2017

Weight Loss Challenge Update Day (2nd Week)

It has been a tough journey. I am overly tired today. Not sure whether it is because I am mentally stressed or physically tired. Work has been a challenge but fun nonetheless so I am grateful.

Updating the blog everyday is a huge challenge for me so today I will going to sum up everything I have done and eat for the past 2 weeks.

Gym Training
Started on 30th March. I tried to go every single day but due to family's plan etc, I missed 5 days of gym day. I feel sore and aching and so tired today. Really want to take a day off and just retire to bed early. But then, I would feel so guilty since I have yet to see any prominent change in my body.

Been trying to cut down on oily and salty food as well as sugary drinks. Been failing when it comes to my morning coffee. But I do try to cut down the consumption. I take that as progress nonetheless. Usual food nowadays consist of sandwiches, omelettes, soups, lots of eggs inspired dishes, lots of cucumber and tomatoes salads and granola with oats and milk.

My personal take
Gym is a struggle but I know its paying off. Pants starting to loosened. Sweating makes me feel good. Body is not as achy. Just the lethargy, I'm still struggling with each day. Food preparation, i dont mind. Its simple actually. Just need to get creative with what you have. Cost wise, it can get expensive. Expensive items; milk and fresh veggies. Otherwise, its bearable. 

Till then!


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