Wednesday, February 14, 2018

Realizations

Been pondering and thinking and reflecting.

I have a lot of things to improve in my life as I am imperfect. My life could be better if I do a few changes.

Physical matter

I could keep my weight off if I don't drink so much instant coffee drinks. For that I just need to find an easier, healthier and yummier alternative. Instead of 3 in 1, maybe i should make my own using just instant coffee and milk. Like what I did in Madinah. Warm milk plus coffee, its yummy! I have that milk warmer i bought in Madinah. Should start making use of that.

Money matters

I could save more. If I am frugal enough, I have 2K balance from my salary every month. If I could just save have of that consistently, I could start planning to buy my own property next year. I also need to give more. Share more.

Spiritual matters

I could be more focus in my prayers. I need to stop talking to my self whilst praying. I do that a lot I find. Keep forgetting what I was doing. The classes have been fun. I am grateful that I got the chance to join. May God keep me steadfast.

Personal matters

I am looking and praying for someone who could complete me. Someone who reminds me of God every single day. Someone who motivate and support me. I know that if it is meant to be, we will find each other. I just need to be patient, keep the faith and pray for the best coz God knows best.






Tuesday, February 13, 2018

Gains

I need to make some changes to my diet. Been taking too much sugary and creamy drinks. My exercise regime is affected since my gym close down. I did some weight training at home but i think it is not sufficient. Perhaps I need to do it daily to maintain my weight?

Its just that I recently enrolled into night classes. I will get home close to 11pm. Perhaps I can do 30 mins workout prior to shower and going to sleep. 

I need to get on a proper diet regime to assist me. If not I am going to gain the weight that I've loss and that would be a terrible shame.

Monday, February 5, 2018

Chinese New Year 2018

The perks of living in Malaysia is that we are blessed with so many public holidays! Chinese New Year is coming up next week. Since our company has many chinese employees and bosses, the office will be closed for 2 days next week meaning we have a 4 days long weekends. Weeeee....

Normally I would go back to my hometown but considering the traffic jam and all, my sister and I decided to just stay put and celebrate CNY in KL instead. I am finding ideas of what to do. Will end up staying indoors watching netflix the whole time instead if I do not have an interesting enough plans.

Currently, my usual weekends involved a lot of netflix, a bit of physical activity and some shopping. Its a pretty good weekend itinerary in my opinion. I get to relax, read, do a bit of housekeeping. Yep. I really enjoy my weekends.

Perhaps this long weekend I can spend it in the city. Maybe visit the KL Park, or KL Tower etc. Catch up on movies perhaps. Hangout at the mall. Have nice meals. I am pretty content with my current situation. I have planned an island trip early next month. exactly 23 days away. Its an all in package. Yes, I indulge a bit this month. I did a lot of shopping too. Bought 2 designer watches, a new court shoes, a handbag, a pair of swimsuit, a memory foam pillow, a new bed sheet. This type of spending need to stop soon as my fund is depleting. 

On a brighter note, I am currently debt free. Settled all my loans. Now I just need to take care of my daily expenses. I am so happy with this achievement.


To Do List 2018

I have not been able to come up with a list for this year. Been reading a lot and the focus for this year is just going to be on me. Last saturday I finally paid a visit to Yayasan Ta'lim just to check out the night classes schedules. I signed up for all classes. There was no commitment fee but if you want to get the certificates, your attendance have to be 80%. I just finding ways to compel my self to be steadfast in my journey as a devout Muslim.

I am still contemplating on a solo travel. I am thinking of experiencing a quiet country life in UK or France or Italy. Just experience how the locals live.  Not do much of touristy things. Need to narrow down on the specific town. I can't imagine living in London. Somewhere near to London (perhaps). I am not sure.



This main focus this year is my self and not worrying about others too much. So far, I have been able to do just that and i am pretty impress with my self. I just need to stick to stick to the routine and once I have the necessary momentum, i will be ok.

Thursday, January 25, 2018

2018

Its the 25th day of 2018. This is my first post for the year. I have been having nose blocked as well as mental blocked. Been meaning to write, note a few experience on umrah but have yet to find the will. Not sure how this post will turn out to be but whatever...

Its been almost a week since I left the Holy Lands.I brought back with me a terrible flu. and a bag of gratitude. Perhaps my gratitude was mask with this flu I am trying to manage. The memories of my umrah seems so surreal. When I was there, I keep savouring the moment and kept thinking what a blessing I have to be able to just commit my time and energy to God and just focus on the whole journey without thinking about work or relationship or anything else.

I will write a proper post on my umrah. I am realigning my focus. I need to find a new purpose. Something to look forward to in 2018. Physically, spiritually, financially.

I am aiming to sculpt my body to perfection. Bought some weight plates. I had a go at it last night but very lightly since I am still unwell.

Spiritually, I've discovered night classes in TTDI. I am planning to check it out.

Financially, I am trying to save up to RM10,000 minimum. Once the fund reach 10K, then only i can plan for everything else. Target date is sometime in the middle of the year.

I am still thinking of a white christmas.

Tuesday, December 19, 2017

Gratitude List No. 19

I am so grateful to be receiving some good news yesterday. The company has rewarded us handsomely for our service and I am planning to use it for several amazing plans in 2018.

First off is to settle some debts. Then to set aside some money for rainy days. After that I need to prepare for umrah and also some repair work for my car. Also set aside some money for hajj.

Lastly, spend some money on my self and my family.

Monday, November 20, 2017

Gratitude List No. 18

Had a nice weekend with my other half. I had been planning to meet him and the Universe just give me exactly what I want. I am so grateful for that. Planning to spend each minute together with laughter and happiness and lots of love.

Meal plans for the week simply because i need to take stock of my pantry

Monday - dinner : chicken breast, mashed and vegies
Tuesday - Breakfast: sandwich Lunch: Salad Dinner: rice and rendang omelet
Wednesday - Breakfast: eggs Lunch: salad Dinner drummets and salads Movie Night
Thursday - Breakfast: sandwich Lunch: sandwich  Dinner pasta
Friday - breakfast: eggs Lunch: Salad Dinner chicken
Saturday - brunch: english Dinner: pizza
Sunday: Johor

Friday, November 17, 2017

Gratitude List No. 17

I am very happy and very thankful today. Its Friday. My nemesis aka the one that still holds my heart is coming to town. Its been 2 months since i last saw him. Not a very long time when you put it in words. But to experience his absence, its a painful experience. I hope I am strong enough to let him go again when he needs to return to his hometown next month.

Although he is very much a pain in the ass, I love having someone who is fun to be around. The thing about him is this, he does not act his age. He treats me as his equal sometimes in a very disrespectful way. He knows the real me. He knows everything about me. He endures me. We endured each other.

I am planning so many things to do together

1. Train together
2. Eat pizza together - been craving pizza for the longest time
3. Go out for brunch together
4. Watch Justice League
5. Argue with each other
6. Talk about deep issues together
7. Inspire each other


Thursday, November 9, 2017

Gratitude List No.16

1. My muesli breakfast. A tad too sweet. Maxed my sugar quota for the day. Would probably hit the gym later tonight.

2. Tinder. This is how i kill time these days. Apart from Netflix and gym, Tinder let me meet new people online. I never really consider my self as a social person but I need to fill up my time and meeting new people seems like a good idea. For now...

3. Coffee. My love for coffee is everlasting I guess. I feel so happy when I get to drink my 1st cup of coffee in the morning.

4. Good friend. I don't have that many friend. I need some time to build trust on a person. Sven has been a great friend. Probably his laid back nature just make it easy for me to share my every thoughts with him.

5. Physical well being. Consistently working out at the gym has been fruitful. I lost at least 5kg. Seeing the changes in my body just made me want to push my self even more.

6. Work. Currently going through a bit of a down time after almost 2 weeks of craziness.

7. Hometown & family. Went back to my hometown last weekend. Spent quality time with the family. Get to relax and recharged a bit. Took Monday off just to trim my hair and spent some time with my own thoughts.

8. Home. Finding it hard to keep the place truly neat and tidy recently. I just need to buck up and get it done. Having a place to sleep and rest its a blessing. Just need to make it even more comfortable for me.

9. Future. Thinking of a 5 years plan. I really have no idea. I am just glad that I manage to finish 1 year with this company. Career wise, this place is a good place to build my portfolio and confidence in a corporate world. Its just sometimes the stress really could get to you. I have to remember that it is hard to even get a place in a company such as my current company. I really really need to make good use of my opportunity here. At the same time, also focusing on what I want to do next.

10. Weekend. Looking forward to the weekend. I just want to rest. Clean up the place and spend time writing. Probably go to the gym to burn more and more!!!

11. Life. My life as a whole is a blessing. I am glad I found the time to write my thoughts down. I am grateful for everything I have in my life.

Tuesday, November 7, 2017

Gratitude List No. 15

Rainy Tuesday morning. I was on leave yesterday. Just taking some "me time". Managed to cut my hair, went to the gym, do a bit of reading and meet a new friend. So, yesterday was pretty hectic yet very fulfilling.

Looking forward to weekends since I spent last weekend with the family. It was fine but a bit tiring since I had to drive. Planning for umrah in January but dad was not keen so does Anna. I am quiet resolved but this would very much depends on my family and my company.

My car has been paid off. So that's a relief. Finishing off one more loan next month. So December gonna so awesome.

I hope to finish off this week calmly, gladly and positively. 

Tuesday, October 31, 2017

Gratitude List No.14 - Dreams Do Come True

Read an article today about Tony Fernandez, the Founder of Air Asia. He was in the music industry when he decided to buy Air Asia and turn it into the best low cost airlines in Asia. He also dream of it and work hard for it.

I have to spend more time dreaming. Focusing on what I want in my life. Giving energized thoughts to only those that matters to my life right now.

I want to be in love again. To be loved by someone who love me as much as I love him. To be able to share stories, laughter, ideas, ambitions and time. Spending time with those who love you is the best feeling in the world. You don't have to do much, just to be with each other, that is enough to make your heart flutter and smile in bliss. I am not asking for much. Just someone who appreciate me and care for me as much as I appreciate them.

I want to travel again. Tickets to Amsterdam and London has been pretty affordable through out the year. With RM3,000 you get a return ticket. I am planning to fill my 2018 with a few trips. Amsterdam and London is high on my list.

I want to have a toned and fit body. Consistently working out have proven fruitful. I have shed some serious weight and all I need to do is keep it up for another month so that it is in my routine. Still aiming for six pack. The journey has been awesome. Looking at my body each and everyday and seeing how it has changed is just awesome.

Realizations

Been pondering and thinking and reflecting. I have a lot of things to improve in my life as I am imperfect. My life could be better if I d...