tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-14666058527300328832024-03-24T15:10:30.176+08:00~Selective Amnesia~Stories to Be Told to the World & Memories To Be Cherished For EternityFairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.comBlogger338125tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-20171654061488260362024-03-11T17:26:00.002+08:002024-03-11T17:26:30.868+08:00Preparing For Ramadhan 2024<p>Here in Malaysia, Ramadhan falls on 12 March 2024 which is tomorrow. I am very excited eventhough i am still having a tiny spot of menses. Hopefully, I get to fast tomorrow! InsyaAllah.</p><p>So far, 2024 has been a busy year. Many court cases from various business units had to be attended to. Penang's matter has been especially troublesome. As I like to make the best of the worst situation, I managed to spend some time with my parents in Penang last weekend. It was short but super fulfilling. Hopefully, all these busy-ness makes the time flew faster as I have a very special plan at the end of this year. Mum's the word.</p><p>Relationship with Eddy has been great as always. We talked a lot because we know that communication is key. He makes it so easy for me. We spent a lot of time at the bowling alley this year. That has been a blast! He rarely complaint and absolutely helpful around the house. Alhamdulillah for the blessings.</p><p>The kids in the meantime have been a bit of a headache but as long as Eddy and I are on the same page, I'm sure we will overcome this.</p><p>The main aim this Ramadhan is to be close to Allah and His forgiveness as well as blessings. I know that without His blessings, my life would be meaningless. When I was in Penang with my parents last weekend, I even set the intention to spend a few days of Ramadhan in the year 2026 in Mecca/Madinah. Perhaps I will include this intention in my many many do'a throughout this blessed Ramadhan. </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqm4kFDM19g-bSM0gRrCVuKygW2Zp62dYkHl_A5Z3RHYh7OmNC66VOwf44V-RD8uz73rbdFjCSoWLXQw5TCrt0_XGa1hgjwD12imZPJUlj-3WbeV5o_76n8Av0P9XFiYjxFE_fOzEmxXxsfxsrt1Vrw-6yWpJVA-EwBoVCjnJoNnGiUfGWet-DC5NWQddJ/s6000/pexels-haydan-assoendawy-2895295.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4000" data-original-width="6000" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhqm4kFDM19g-bSM0gRrCVuKygW2Zp62dYkHl_A5Z3RHYh7OmNC66VOwf44V-RD8uz73rbdFjCSoWLXQw5TCrt0_XGa1hgjwD12imZPJUlj-3WbeV5o_76n8Av0P9XFiYjxFE_fOzEmxXxsfxsrt1Vrw-6yWpJVA-EwBoVCjnJoNnGiUfGWet-DC5NWQddJ/s320/pexels-haydan-assoendawy-2895295.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><p><br /></p>Let's not forget Gaza. Their situation is not improving. Many died due to starvation and malnutrition. I pray that Allah makes it easy for them this Ramadhan. I pray that a ceasefire will come through soon. May Allah help all of them. Ameen<p></p><p><br /> </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-74614318079514390402024-01-30T14:34:00.001+08:002024-01-30T14:34:14.615+08:002024<p>Today is the 16th day of 2024. A few things to note, the Gen*cide in Gaza is now enters its 100th days. South Africa brought Israel to the International Court of Justice. The killing has not stop. We are still scrolling through the images of bodies under the rubbles, the martyrs buried in mass graves and families in despair due to death and starvation. I pray Allah will grant them ease and liberate them from the Zionist.</p><p>I entered my 4series with a cautious feeling. Knowing I am inching closer to the end of my days with still very little good deeds and ibadah to show my Lord on judgment days. Therefore, my aim for this year is to increase my savings in my Tabung Haji so that I get to perform hajj as soon as possible. May Allah invite all of us to His holy lands to perform Hajj and umrah.</p><p>Other aim this year is to keep my body active. Eddy and I just equipped ourselves with bowling kits and have been playing regularly. We are hoping to join a league and a few tournaments this year. We are still learning the ropes to be exact but we hope to get serious with it this year. I just won my 1st competition under my company this year. Female Champion! Not too shabby huh?</p><p>I manage to close another loan this year. Enough of giving free money to the bank. This saving will be put into my hajj and retirement fund. Dreaming of being able to go for umrah whenever I want after retirement and staying there for however long my heart desires. Yus is currently in Mecca. Feeling so envious and longing to be there again. </p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-32858612090141437472023-11-02T17:12:00.000+08:002023-11-02T17:12:09.310+08:00Bangsa Yang Melampui Batas<br /><div><br /></div>Dunia menonton kekejaman Ishrael melalui media masa dan media sosial sejak 7 October yang lalu. Kekejaman Izrel bukan baru. Semenjak tertubuhnya negara !sr@el, merekat telah terus menerus melampaui batas.<div><br /></div><div>Kali ini, tindakan kejam mereka adalah atas alasan untuk membalas dendam keatas serangan mengejut yang dilakukan oleh H@m@s Lebih 1700 warga Isrel terbunuh dan beberapa ratus lagi tercedera dan ada juga yang telah diculik,</div><div><br /></div><div>Meanwhile, about 10,000 Palestinians are killed or lost under the rubbles. The aggressor/occupier promised to keep the civilians safe but at the same time, they b0mb the hospitals and UN Schools. Its crazy to think that I am living in a world where basic human rights are not available to people in Palestine for reason which they are not blameworthy.</div><div><br /></div><div>Its senseless. </div><div><br /></div><div>I find it hard to make plans anymore. I just grateful that I get to sleep in my own bed, go to work, have clean water. These are all privileges that the Palestinians does have. Why??</div><div><br /></div><div>Greed!</div><div><br /></div><div>I hope and can do more for the cause. I feel like I am not doing enough. I can only pray so that Palestine will be free again. Soon. InsyaAllah </div><div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9ePzlzOIEEkeomHoXJ7-dNuPdNlGNerel71q_hT5nJ4OVqdcAMl2-1XuQAj9UuocGifSKkCMiQIywyK7NfT8UiE6oQA41q_XzOtntIIHakE1LAo7XiQchhMJXPWYWCW_q604KjNkFBoEcpQ6rYwnDjPVMQtT3VNwjAzoWpDro6Avj8FDLd5HVpDC5lzD6/s7952/pexels-yasir-g%C3%BCrb%C3%BCz-11565073.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="5304" data-original-width="7952" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi9ePzlzOIEEkeomHoXJ7-dNuPdNlGNerel71q_hT5nJ4OVqdcAMl2-1XuQAj9UuocGifSKkCMiQIywyK7NfT8UiE6oQA41q_XzOtntIIHakE1LAo7XiQchhMJXPWYWCW_q604KjNkFBoEcpQ6rYwnDjPVMQtT3VNwjAzoWpDro6Avj8FDLd5HVpDC5lzD6/s320/pexels-yasir-g%C3%BCrb%C3%BCz-11565073.jpg" width="320" /></a></div></div>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-35709740767788170692023-10-13T16:06:00.001+08:002023-10-13T16:06:41.603+08:00Lessons From Uzbekistan<p>This post has been sitting in draft forms for months. Well today, I decided to publish it. Better late than never I guess..</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOK0vWwycU7jee9_9K9mITcqperZOMi0dB118WM3pXeo6QvxsGscF8MN37Y6J7XmhZECV7ESQrDsPGV353zGJOpCHXAyPNG3UsdsSm_NoZmt02NNEybRIxR2Fx2qyGaQQdJnBAe3vCg9FIKHFca9ysJc1uWCrMFVyt-MSl4Wbbip8stCL7tFw2PYL9h0hD/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2015.59.54.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiOK0vWwycU7jee9_9K9mITcqperZOMi0dB118WM3pXeo6QvxsGscF8MN37Y6J7XmhZECV7ESQrDsPGV353zGJOpCHXAyPNG3UsdsSm_NoZmt02NNEybRIxR2Fx2qyGaQQdJnBAe3vCg9FIKHFca9ysJc1uWCrMFVyt-MSl4Wbbip8stCL7tFw2PYL9h0hD/w150-h200/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2015.59.54.jpeg" width="150" /></a></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div>We just got back from Uzbekistan. It was a 7 days trip which I totally enjoyed. It was summer so the weather was super hot but alhamdulillah, both my husband and I was healthy and well throughout the trip. Allah is the most merciful. <p></p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhOC3SChMSrOFYp-MeKSPRdxLkwdtKYZX2NqcQZkjLCqOFve8LMjd2JAEoQ8llsW4dHcLQDhbdsJnE_hfFyvwfBUXf-Ow6_PlluuUFcOEXD4UQR76UebLJEXlI17NuHUZf0sDXVaANF249K_tYiuGExwt5LNXv_oHZC38Mt6w9ePOiOXLhK9h79JbCNDzu/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2016.01.14.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjhOC3SChMSrOFYp-MeKSPRdxLkwdtKYZX2NqcQZkjLCqOFve8LMjd2JAEoQ8llsW4dHcLQDhbdsJnE_hfFyvwfBUXf-Ow6_PlluuUFcOEXD4UQR76UebLJEXlI17NuHUZf0sDXVaANF249K_tYiuGExwt5LNXv_oHZC38Mt6w9ePOiOXLhK9h79JbCNDzu/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2016.01.14.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div>Uzbekistan is the first Central Asia's country that we visited and our first impression was simply amazing. We know that it is a muslim majority country but we also know that they were under Soviet Union regime. That is why we were genuinely surprise to see how Islam is being strongly practice there. I would go on to say that they practice islam in such a peaceful and non-judgmental way. You practice not to pleased other but Allah. Every single thing they do, they have Allah and Al-Quran in mind. If you have just that 2 things as your guidance in life, nothing can go wrong. Even if something did went wrong, it is as Allah intended hence you should be happy about it.<p></p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjEURJQCDIHO_0Tzhs18RAcWd9DmTdNnXgdZa6ibz4mpl0YvN2cgKhiBxNu4gkuVoQ283vM2Pm36pbg1U4JzpU_3W-mr2mkrbArdAjWCNrZ4A1SdyA_DN0XUFD0WVi-fRh-U3JG1rkbAMGE3Z0Z7K-fzv0jgMKb1CwCUF8EKwmDrX21N3r1-l-BaZQaaVx/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2016.01.30.jpeg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="720" data-original-width="1280" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhjEURJQCDIHO_0Tzhs18RAcWd9DmTdNnXgdZa6ibz4mpl0YvN2cgKhiBxNu4gkuVoQ283vM2Pm36pbg1U4JzpU_3W-mr2mkrbArdAjWCNrZ4A1SdyA_DN0XUFD0WVi-fRh-U3JG1rkbAMGE3Z0Z7K-fzv0jgMKb1CwCUF8EKwmDrX21N3r1-l-BaZQaaVx/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2016.01.30.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><br />The experiences I get while travelling is making me re-evaluate my life and all the blessings that have been given to me. It opens my mind to new possibilities and at the same time, I am very grateful with whatever i have already been given to me by Allah.<p></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-7805699050481700752023-10-13T15:49:00.000+08:002023-10-13T15:49:07.580+08:00Best Planner<p> We plan and Allah plans. Allah is the best of planner.</p><p><br /></p><p>Things that I want to remember. Do not worry about rezq. Because it is in Allah's hands and He is the most generous of all.</p><p>What we need to focus on is to be closer to Allah in the best way possible. If you walk towards Allah, Allah will run to you. What are you doing now </p><p><br /></p><p><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Noto Serif", "Helvetica Neue", helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">Abu Dharr reported: The Messenger of Allah, peace and blessings be upon him, said, “</span><span style="background-color: white; border: 0px; box-sizing: border-box; font-family: "Noto Serif", "Helvetica Neue", helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px; font-weight: 700; margin: 0px; outline: 0px; padding: 0px; vertical-align: baseline;">Allah Almighty says: Whoever comes with a good deed will have the reward of ten like it and even more. Whoever comes with an evil deed will be recompensed for one evil deed like it or he will be forgiven. Whoever draws close to Me by the length of a hand, I will draw close to him by the length of an arm. Whoever draws close to Me the by length of an arm, I will draw close to him by the length of a fathom. Whoever comes to Me walking, I will come to him running. Whoever meets Me with enough sins to fill the earth, not associating any partners with Me, I will meet him with as much forgiveness.</span><span style="background-color: white; font-family: "Noto Serif", "Helvetica Neue", helvetica, arial, sans-serif; font-size: 16px;">”</span></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-4078191064914871782023-10-13T11:25:00.005+08:002023-10-17T16:43:59.612+08:00Vacation Done Right<p>My husband and I just came back from a week long trip to Bali (8 nights to be exact). I curated the itinerary and decided to see as much of Bali as possible. As expected, Bali is huge and there are so much to see and do. Its very easy to get caught up in what other people are doing. I was always on Google maps looking for things to do and places to visit. I saw that it is what everyone else is doing too. I was trying to feel as excited about Bali like how my sister is always so passionate when talking about Bali. I guess her vibe is not our vibe.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRcVzH0BbX22VCXJn1AUp5swIGVQm_fFTIrrxVrmHv1srLThRa5oQgPo-rgrmlZL9Xb79wKQC4ojaTCTJ1xKPxZGtP9tUt7hh-aoaFijRWlVJ5SV8FZmhYL6HFnYBl29FlN-bHyaEkN60wOD2Rc1H4yGWkvwsKL-CB4kvBgE_K3rwrfQ31oQ5O2erCsOlI/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2011.22.17.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="960" data-original-width="1280" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgRcVzH0BbX22VCXJn1AUp5swIGVQm_fFTIrrxVrmHv1srLThRa5oQgPo-rgrmlZL9Xb79wKQC4ojaTCTJ1xKPxZGtP9tUt7hh-aoaFijRWlVJ5SV8FZmhYL6HFnYBl29FlN-bHyaEkN60wOD2Rc1H4yGWkvwsKL-CB4kvBgE_K3rwrfQ31oQ5O2erCsOlI/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2011.22.17.jpeg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>The whole experience made me wonder. What does an ideal holiday looks like for me?</p><p>I tried not to cramped too much activities for this trip but it seems like we felt a bit guilty when we just laze around and spent time on our gadgets instead of exploring or doing something. I feel like i need to define what holiday means for me. Is holiday the same with travel? If we do not enjoy the travel are we still on a holiday? </p><p>A holiday is a time off from work and any responsibilities. That sounds like my typical time on the weekends when the kids are not around. Maybe that is why, holiday for me needs to involve being away from home and preferably on a foreign soil, trying new things. </p><p>I'm not sure of my feelings right now. Do i have to much worldly desire hence I am feeling dissatisfied? Or is it just my hormone acting up?</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2B9b63GsMOoSc_xX_ExflEu4VxjebXK7mX77DXCrC8KLREPegqDjiv4BBxflUhnUrrBwLsC2-VBsu20-3zbl_iV-R2PLtHQjgwbfWsxmXy0qFzJ8aXJjHUdDE-8qqZmUC-FfWgdTNIIKGEg6hntChoK_0aAZfcZI1_0Sn0YB7ZI8KhiXtUJbzKdtJGaam/s1280/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2011.21.14.jpeg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="1280" data-original-width="960" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi2B9b63GsMOoSc_xX_ExflEu4VxjebXK7mX77DXCrC8KLREPegqDjiv4BBxflUhnUrrBwLsC2-VBsu20-3zbl_iV-R2PLtHQjgwbfWsxmXy0qFzJ8aXJjHUdDE-8qqZmUC-FfWgdTNIIKGEg6hntChoK_0aAZfcZI1_0Sn0YB7ZI8KhiXtUJbzKdtJGaam/s320/WhatsApp%20Image%202023-10-13%20at%2011.21.14.jpeg" width="240" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-33695677236981524272023-04-18T10:47:00.003+08:002023-04-18T10:47:18.965+08:00Catatan 26 Ramadan 2023Ramadan dah hampir sampai ke penghujung. Rasa tak puas. Rasa tak cukup banyak ibadat. Kali ini aku pilih untuk Tadabur Quran instead of Khatam Quran. Properly understand a few surahs. Nak biasakan diri dengan Quran. Nak jadikan Quran tu teman. Sentiasa baca, memahami dan mengamalkan. InsyaAllah.<div><br /></div><div>Ramai influencer berkongsi pengalaman menunaikan umrah di bulan puasa. Video tampak Mekah sesak dgn jemaah. Tapi ada waktu, gambaran sisi dekat kaabah, tampak ruang-ruang kosong. Masih selesa. Masih boleh menunaikan tawaf dengan aman. Ya Allah, rindu. Semoga kami dijemput ke sana lagi untuk Haji pula hendaknya. Allahumma aamiin..</div><div><br /></div><div>Alhamdulillah, Allah tu Maha Kaya, Maha Pemurah, Maha Penyayang.. Dia cukupkan segalanya untuk kami sekeluarga tahun ini. Eddy kerja keras untuk memberikan yang terbaik. Tugas aku adalah untuk menyeimbangkan antara Dunia sementara dan Akhirat yang pasti.</div><div><br /></div><div>Nasihat, ingatan buat diri ini terutama sekali dan sesiapa yang membaca. Akhirat tu pasti akan kita lalui. Dunia ini tempat kita untuk buat tempahan penginapan dan transportation kita di sana. Apa jenis accomodation pilihan hati. Yang panas atau yang dingin? Ada hadis yang menyatakan mereka yang menjadikan Surah Al Baqarah dan Ali Imran sebagai kelazimannya, dia akan terlepas dr panasnya matahari di masyar kelak. Hadis ini baru aku ketahui. Semoga tahun ini aku dapat habis belajar 2 surah penting ini dan betul-betul diamalkan.</div><div><br /></div><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDByR3_pKzVlhDI8o3jbKUMp5l0qBuDbG7yEgEqpsv6c9OIVPqTaB-QiqP_zeaSTzNjzyOcL1xwgGKHXYos1Pk_EFDhFuSzx6zPYIY8GBvxlcCWKu0q0n8u7LfKCXif69ZCPgi_qMxM7PuyYelacDT2VEqOfkskiP_vkjm1Y29U3dG9Xk0rw7_Gwf94Q/s1279/pexels-abdullah-ghatasheh-2608353.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="858" data-original-width="1279" height="215" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhDByR3_pKzVlhDI8o3jbKUMp5l0qBuDbG7yEgEqpsv6c9OIVPqTaB-QiqP_zeaSTzNjzyOcL1xwgGKHXYos1Pk_EFDhFuSzx6zPYIY8GBvxlcCWKu0q0n8u7LfKCXif69ZCPgi_qMxM7PuyYelacDT2VEqOfkskiP_vkjm1Y29U3dG9Xk0rw7_Gwf94Q/s320/pexels-abdullah-ghatasheh-2608353.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div><br /></div><div>Sebagai umat nabi Muhammad SAW, aku doa supaya diri ini mendapat syafaat dari Rasulullah dan aku dapat jadi antara insan yang sama-sama berdiri bertemu bahu di hadapan pintu syurga paling besar. Aku doa agar ada 1 istana disediakan untuk aku yang di bawahnya ada sungai yang mengalir.</div><div><br /></div><div>Selain dari menumpukan perhatian kepada Al Quran, aku pohon semoga Allah mengizinkan aku untuk banyak bermusafir, melihat keindahan ciptaanNya. </div><div><br /></div><div>Doa paling banyak untuk puasa tahun ini... Tawfiq dan hidayah yang berterusan dari Allah untuk aku, suami, ibu bapa kami, anak-anak kami, ahli keluarga kami dan siapa sahaja yang mengingati kami dalam doa-doa mereka. Semoga kita sentiasa mencari jalan yang boleh membuatkan Sang Pencipta tambah sayang kepada kita semua</div>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-5781188545392627462023-03-10T18:27:00.000+08:002023-03-10T18:27:50.592+08:00Friday<p>This post has been sitting in draft form for nearly a month. I've been busy travelling up and down Malaysia for work. My husband and kids have been amazing and supportive. No complaints of a messy house, piling laundry or having to eat takeout foods everyday. They are a blessing, alhamdulillah.</p><p>Hectic life leads to me dreaming of a gateway. We've been binging on Ustazah Basikal's journey to Mecca. A couple, rode their bikes from Malaysia to Mecca. Its inspiring to say the least. They have not finished telling their story in their youtube's but they did wrote several books documenting their journey. (<b><i>Note to self: buy their book before going to Uzbek in June</i></b>)</p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCEQSMZeOIhcU9NnJQTybWn6diQPAKtcY3N-r7OpHRPZbsKzZ27x2wogDqrdF-k5JBy3TL-fnV2HYtXbsta-crU7-eZugbZ3RmqbFzOL6A-bOOmyrpwt87mZeo4q4GQSkbc87GRoQCx1hmk8h4TxzN7eLKr8Hzr_MWMRP89746xBX8I2_a1n4oLp_p4g/s5184/pexels-porapak-apichodilok-346885.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3456" data-original-width="5184" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjCEQSMZeOIhcU9NnJQTybWn6diQPAKtcY3N-r7OpHRPZbsKzZ27x2wogDqrdF-k5JBy3TL-fnV2HYtXbsta-crU7-eZugbZ3RmqbFzOL6A-bOOmyrpwt87mZeo4q4GQSkbc87GRoQCx1hmk8h4TxzN7eLKr8Hzr_MWMRP89746xBX8I2_a1n4oLp_p4g/s320/pexels-porapak-apichodilok-346885.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br />So, for the past week or so, I've been thinking of our own Round the World (RTW) trip. Let's think deeper:<p></p><p>What - </p><p>mode of transport options : </p><p></p><ol style="text-align: left;"><li>Bike </li><li>Motorbike</li><li>Car</li><li>Truck</li><li>motorhome</li><li>public transport</li></ol>In terms of mode of transportation, a few experiments need to be carried out. We just need something sustainable. Safety is our number one priority. It need not be comfortable but it has to be not too uncomfortable. If its enjoyable then, its a bonus.<br /><p></p><p>Why - To see Allah's creations, be closer to Allah, become a mussafir </p><p>Where - Maybe we need to start small so that we can experiment different mode of transport. Sarawak/Brunei could be the first destinations. Amsterdam can be a nice place to try long distance cycling. Motorcycle in Italy. Car rides in German. Motor homes in New Zealand</p><p>When - the earliest i could think of is after we got back from Uzbek. Maybe we should go around Sarawak first or even up north to Thailand?</p><p>How - much is the cost?</p><p>Save every penny we got. Take up extra work. Pray that Allah will provide and grant us ease.</p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-19351925422403500622023-01-26T14:47:00.000+08:002023-01-26T14:47:01.424+08:00Why are women so petty (sometimes)?<p>I just realised (literally just realised it a few minutes ago) that I have this tendency to be petty. I am not sure when it started. I hope it was not a built-in thing coz I really dislike to be equate with such cliche trait for a women. </p><p>I hate myself for being petty. Even whilst I was saying (typing) those petty sentences to my husband, I spite myself for doing it. Somehow, I have little control over my action. I don't believe in such thing (having no control over your own action). It sounded like I am disclaiming responsibility towards my own action. I wish I could just disclaim it and blame it on my hormone or the devil, in the end, there is only me, myself and I.</p><p>My poor husband was the victim of my ongoing pettiness. It started yesterday. He didn't invite me to go to the park. I guess, I feel abandoned. I always ask him to do everything with me but this one time he decided not to take me with him. He doesn't think that he is doing anything wrong so he doesn't feel the need to apologize to me. The thing is this. I like to think that I am rational and most of the time logical but somehow, his excuses sounded so selfish to me. I know he has no intention of hurting my feeling, yet I'm still hurt. </p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsNNe86FWomIkhPQ-GoESKCDWhpoUvcEmnIXd_DhYQLQjyiIm36DdZbJ8P3l-CltZSy9qZtNqg4CxBcuzUNhTuru9q3tfgURu4zM-lC_vCPRV_k_k3VWCuu1DMk5C_ZXOLAWXzU0gEyOMwGoN16M7kMCXsAHBXAhjM1ZxZb_2pT91TMH6gCVPIg7F5qA/s4608/pexels-karen-la%C3%A5rk-boshoff-6441474.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4608" data-original-width="4608" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhsNNe86FWomIkhPQ-GoESKCDWhpoUvcEmnIXd_DhYQLQjyiIm36DdZbJ8P3l-CltZSy9qZtNqg4CxBcuzUNhTuru9q3tfgURu4zM-lC_vCPRV_k_k3VWCuu1DMk5C_ZXOLAWXzU0gEyOMwGoN16M7kMCXsAHBXAhjM1ZxZb_2pT91TMH6gCVPIg7F5qA/s320/pexels-karen-la%C3%A5rk-boshoff-6441474.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>I should just let it go. Holding on to this petty stupid issue would only hurt me. I'm hurt and he should know that. But he did not apologize. I guess that's why I'm now bitter and spiteful. </p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-8360490241919427652023-01-06T10:52:00.002+08:002023-01-06T10:52:16.568+08:00Gratitude (Friday - 6 January)<p>There is so much to be grateful for. Truly. If we spent just a few minutes to think about all our blessings and thank Allah for all of them, it will definitely improve our mood.</p><p>Yesterday, I had a fruitful day at work. It was challenging but definitely satisfying. We finally visited Paya Indah Wetlands. Saw the hippos, crocs, tortoises and horses being fed and enjoy Allah's beautiful nature. Beautiful reflection of the sky and the trees during a sunny day. Magnificent view created by Allah. I am so blessed to be able to see it all. </p><p>I went home tired but I get the house to my self since my husband and son were in Putrajaya. I manage to muster what little energy left and cooked a healthy porridge full of veggies and a few dollop of mushroom potage soup. I get to enjoy a bit of a downtime in front of the tv and slept early.</p><p>To my surprise, my husband came home in the wee morning blessed his heart for driving all the way from Putrajaya just to sleep in our bed, by my side. I woke up for fajr and get to read Surah Al -Kahfi before starting the day. I get to cook breakfast for my husband with jazz music playing in the background. </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs55RzgXZL06Zudr8PMg3mCm09nd0-9qRCM71xxsLlpGE0YauYidfkHsOvWjxvIxi5ie8u9VfloNC9VB7yd1UvlBnGlALfGOOTw54qJ6jnbQnxfxjWfbdCGfAxbd9bibCg-T6HoP2TqVYxe0apZeuSX2fqM_wKI6bK-pTkPRGFVxIpRqPSRepxPSXUBw/s5760/pexels-elina-sazonova-3971983.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="5760" data-original-width="3840" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhs55RzgXZL06Zudr8PMg3mCm09nd0-9qRCM71xxsLlpGE0YauYidfkHsOvWjxvIxi5ie8u9VfloNC9VB7yd1UvlBnGlALfGOOTw54qJ6jnbQnxfxjWfbdCGfAxbd9bibCg-T6HoP2TqVYxe0apZeuSX2fqM_wKI6bK-pTkPRGFVxIpRqPSRepxPSXUBw/s320/pexels-elina-sazonova-3971983.jpg" width="213" /></a></div>I went to office feeling fresh, donning a newly bought scarf. I tend to the office plants just to make sure they all get enough sunlight. Now I'm writing this while drinking hot chocolate since the office feels extra cold today.<br /><p></p><p>Its Friday so extra Salawat to our beloved Prophet Muhammad SAW. Been reading a few posts about his characters. He is the best of mankind hence that is why, we should all follow his footsteps. Hopefully, we get to meet him in Paradise. Aameen.. </p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-25159835703399517602023-01-04T14:44:00.005+08:002023-01-18T15:57:23.292+08:00Who I Wish to Become<p>Building new habits starts with knowing who you want to become through those habits.</p><p>Since I am reaching my final year in my 3 series era, I constantly think about my retirement. What it is going to look like and what I am going to do if I ever live long enough to reach my retirement age.</p><p>First of all, when do I want to retire? Perhaps after my cash savings (not including KWSP) reach at least 300K? If I save/invest RM 2.5K every month, I can get RM300K in 12.5 years. When can I start to save RM2.5K per month?</p><p>My monthly commitment has been high as of late. I could set a budget and stick to it. I need to limit my expenses to just RM 4000 per month. As of now, I am saving at least 1K per month. I will start to save more next month. </p><p>Then again, rizq is from Allah and Allah is the best planner. If Allah is pleased with us, He will grant us more rizq and even guide us to make a good financial planning so that we would be able to achieve whatever we want. I need to remember that every dollar spent for the Sake of Allah, He will returned the dollar, tenfold. Who I wish to become is a generous person. All the money I have is meant for others but those I gave away for the sake of Allah, will be recorded as good deeds and this will help me in the Hereafter.</p><p>It is decided. This year's habits should center around pleasing our Creator instead of worrying about what will be given to us. The focus should be on paradise and the Hereafter because that is definitely where we will end up at. I wish to have palaces, beautiful palaces built for me in Jannah. Perhaps, every time i visit a huge beautiful building, I will be reminded of paradise and palaces in paradise. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqaG7qfxaC5cSEFyq6mR1DykGMfdi3zAyxjDk-fIoLbwLJ_aVck7Xz8pVtp3-3-S20-RaV5eEYhbBsS3DJyF9YAE7a5dni4ZLwS9ASpdYkOdFQPnNSZb45Tz6FyeY9baVf3bUTR_PleGIdZAoCpllPBXr5QzO7ktboMNVLmhC-VpaViqBisxFK3tmaVg/s4032/pexels-jonathan-schmer-13507965.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3024" data-original-width="4032" height="240" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgqaG7qfxaC5cSEFyq6mR1DykGMfdi3zAyxjDk-fIoLbwLJ_aVck7Xz8pVtp3-3-S20-RaV5eEYhbBsS3DJyF9YAE7a5dni4ZLwS9ASpdYkOdFQPnNSZb45Tz6FyeY9baVf3bUTR_PleGIdZAoCpllPBXr5QzO7ktboMNVLmhC-VpaViqBisxFK3tmaVg/s320/pexels-jonathan-schmer-13507965.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>Waking up as early as 5am for tahajud and subuh prayer with my husband. Voluntary fast on Mondays and Thursdays and all other special days. Consistently giving out sedaqah and helping those in need. I just increased my monthly zakat payment since my salary was revised. I pray that Allah accepts it from me and forgive my sins. </p><p>I've started to get physically active as well as sleeping early. I also read books before bed these days. Perhaps these habits could help to reduce the amount of time I spent in front of the tv. </p><p>I want to continue increasing my love for Allah. Remembering all His mercy and rizq that He has given me through out my life. How He protected me and continue to love me despite my transgression. How He forgive me and rewarded me for my patience. 2022 was such a miraculous journey. I pray that 2023 would be even better, insyaAllah.</p><p>p/s - Perhaps it is time to restart my offline gratitude journal. </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoM9kPTVxYCuJD5LjIIhv7k79mCmCCxV5XPUjfJVl_S9TmWLQmeOw6UHBmknHCxhjemHAkMHDySjkmo8hV6wZELwonHbvnXTfhNwSgmuob63PrbiLEhTbW7xo6K9hUUJDBn8eEjHZIUrEnF8cPnEh3a2QY9E9vi-qGX6F2WuR6UThZC10itzR0eFOgdg/s5935/pexels-alexas-fotos-6935107.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3907" data-original-width="5935" height="211" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhoM9kPTVxYCuJD5LjIIhv7k79mCmCCxV5XPUjfJVl_S9TmWLQmeOw6UHBmknHCxhjemHAkMHDySjkmo8hV6wZELwonHbvnXTfhNwSgmuob63PrbiLEhTbW7xo6K9hUUJDBn8eEjHZIUrEnF8cPnEh3a2QY9E9vi-qGX6F2WuR6UThZC10itzR0eFOgdg/s320/pexels-alexas-fotos-6935107.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /> <p></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-16009608353744733142023-01-03T17:16:00.004+08:002023-01-18T16:07:52.571+08:00Manifestation (3)<p> Alhamdulillah.. </p><p>I must say, writing a manifestation has been a magical journey. The last manifestation post that I wrote in July manifested in September. I wrote about Royal Caribbean Cruise, we bought the holiday package for it in September. I wrote about Hajj. We actually went for Umrah in October. MasyaAllah. As to the 3rd on the list, I'm still working on my physique. I'm healthy, that what matters right?</p><p>Let's start manifesting good things in 2023.</p><p>1. A trip abroad with Adly. Either Singapore, Thailand, Indonesia or Turkey even Europe</p><p>2. Increase in sadaqah jariah.. I need to find ways to increase this good deeds and not worry about rezq. Trust that the more you give out, the more Allah will replaced it for you</p><p>3. UK and Europe is still in my list. Added Turkey and Uzbek too.. I wish to visit all beautiful mosques in the world. Starting with those in Malaysia and neighbouring countries like Banda Acheh in Indonesia. Travelling as a habit perhaps? May Allah ease..</p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5ujzD0oq9_qZUUf049f43D5Zh6wgpG24aVf3cS3IsiCIkVfKu5n2cQnPcpHGSFjSgu2ED67njy7cDQGzfwVAV9615xaVWu4DhMotRMGAPJAX2swzVLZWXcdwNPIw7DhTg6o3cAowjvUm2AJQ-PhSAQA9SOB2HIG2cRXD5jjEnXp9JxdadrgNUQi_TyQ/s5966/pexels-pierre-blach%C3%A9-2901209.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3356" data-original-width="5966" height="180" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj5ujzD0oq9_qZUUf049f43D5Zh6wgpG24aVf3cS3IsiCIkVfKu5n2cQnPcpHGSFjSgu2ED67njy7cDQGzfwVAV9615xaVWu4DhMotRMGAPJAX2swzVLZWXcdwNPIw7DhTg6o3cAowjvUm2AJQ-PhSAQA9SOB2HIG2cRXD5jjEnXp9JxdadrgNUQi_TyQ/s320/pexels-pierre-blach%C3%A9-2901209.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>4. Tahajud is my habit. Hopefully it will last my lifetime. May Allah grant us istiqamah. The benefit is great. I just need to motivate myself to sleep early and wake up earlier.</p><p>5. Increase my retirement savings increased this year. I want to have a retirement where all we do is travel. Yearly visit to the holy lands insyaAllah and visit all the wonders of the world. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLqGOrm2X42dGX7fUmM0xfw0JKOgY9-CNy5q13EzDN1oglU_aBvoiAgA6BLjcWpF0udfpCcfPzPjPVpKIycNCYfhulRCMvpCkqyKT8qBqSZ65CFtUZngDpHy3CrmKLXzlGtewax4xjnCAAHfHFB2HovNOsTyB5SOuIeU_LMqXI4mFrJ7d0uYXgjovPuA/s6599/pexels-leah-kelley-3935702.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4399" data-original-width="6599" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgLqGOrm2X42dGX7fUmM0xfw0JKOgY9-CNy5q13EzDN1oglU_aBvoiAgA6BLjcWpF0udfpCcfPzPjPVpKIycNCYfhulRCMvpCkqyKT8qBqSZ65CFtUZngDpHy3CrmKLXzlGtewax4xjnCAAHfHFB2HovNOsTyB5SOuIeU_LMqXI4mFrJ7d0uYXgjovPuA/s320/pexels-leah-kelley-3935702.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-3815699002324618172023-01-03T15:37:00.005+08:002023-01-03T16:08:32.779+08:002023<p> Its the 3rd of January 2023 (Tuesday). First day of working for this year. </p><p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4zao7tgBQrYwg7-MruoQTsrBXKxkQHpswFG2xUUEda7t6PS_qwV52ScznlWII5Dsx8oWw2OUw_aQf_-3LL0u9Jg4zkH90E0iJPC4PE8fffvIxhW8HDLqNXyBAkH12sb-tWQpsNyAm0VDbrHmgYOBwrCFV_4-JheIqnoShhBqTA0Vg6ICzpUH7UCUqPg/s5679/pexels-jill-wellington-3334355.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="5679" data-original-width="3786" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg4zao7tgBQrYwg7-MruoQTsrBXKxkQHpswFG2xUUEda7t6PS_qwV52ScznlWII5Dsx8oWw2OUw_aQf_-3LL0u9Jg4zkH90E0iJPC4PE8fffvIxhW8HDLqNXyBAkH12sb-tWQpsNyAm0VDbrHmgYOBwrCFV_4-JheIqnoShhBqTA0Vg6ICzpUH7UCUqPg/s320/pexels-jill-wellington-3334355.jpg" width="213" /></a></div>Another year. Hopefully a much peaceful and happier year now that everything is in its place. I don't have many resolution plans. I feel like I've accumulated too many bad habits that I need to let go off this year.<p></p><p>Since I intend to travel more this year, I need to save more money meaning spend less. I need to track my spending so I know where my money went and just dump a chunk of my salary into my saving. Automate everything so that I don't have to think about it. I'm setting up everything now so that I don't have to worry or even think about it later. This year I'm trying Wahed Invest. Another robo investor. The basic idea behind investing is to do it regularly so that the money you invested is compounded.</p><p>The narrative that has been circulating for the past months or so is that the world will enter a terrible financial crisis and therefore everyone should be prepared for it. I am not an expert in economic but I do know that savings regularly is simply a good habits to have. Let's just do that this year and be mindful of our spending. </p><p><br /></p><p> </p><br /><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-32361543861987335352022-12-09T09:48:00.001+08:002022-12-09T09:48:55.773+08:00Focus<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4jLCF41FopgLpNvlsMuA0ORuOdBzrF6laO7ASIevw3xDQ9VYNhriSQrQGrXBwFGXIOZnQMUFzpv4AHmRncwYVJmjAWueGjEgwseWgIOZMWq_M3lV5f2uKMG2Iy544fjb3R7sw7WfSRArJi44P3sM7bY_KOlRzYUwXzrH8n4721eoXPPNHy0oCWiSq2g/s5352/pexels-aviv-perets-3540318.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="5352" data-original-width="3564" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj4jLCF41FopgLpNvlsMuA0ORuOdBzrF6laO7ASIevw3xDQ9VYNhriSQrQGrXBwFGXIOZnQMUFzpv4AHmRncwYVJmjAWueGjEgwseWgIOZMWq_M3lV5f2uKMG2Iy544fjb3R7sw7WfSRArJi44P3sM7bY_KOlRzYUwXzrH8n4721eoXPPNHy0oCWiSq2g/s320/pexels-aviv-perets-3540318.jpg" width="213" /></a></div><br />I want to focus on these few things starting today onwards. May Allah ease<p></p><p>1. Worry less (redha) - trust Allah's plan as He is the best planner</p><p>I'm hoping to become a calmer and more hopeful and positive person. Probably I'll be a happier person as well who complaint less and accept everything as it is. Trusting Allah that it is Him that intended everything to happen. </p><p><i>Faith is Trusting God when you don't even understand His plan</i></p><p>2. Be humble (No pride)</p><p>Whatever i have today, is from Allah. I need to remember that. I have nothing if not for Allah. My imaan in my heart is from Allah, my faith, my ability to remember Allah and keep worship Allah is because Allah allows me. Be humble always as Allah can easily take all of it from me. </p><p>Do everything to please Allah. Be mindful of Allah. Make Allah our main consideration in each decision, action and plan</p><p><i>None shall enter Paradise who has in his heart a mustard seed of pride</i></p><p>3. Only love things that Allah also loves and hate those that Allah hates</p><p><br /></p><p>4. I need to increase doing the ibadah that I love. Quran recitation as well as voluntary solah </p><p><br /></p><p><i><br /></i></p><p><br /></p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-65947526884418309052022-10-28T15:37:00.000+08:002022-10-28T15:37:08.160+08:00Umrah 2022<p> Thank you Allah for making it easy for us.</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8qAHhH7335QsNZWQj1X9fB1o0nFAzY1CohLfyoa6MsjMnluM99_XJjoYKSdHG0BmNxVYUPyesFvCn_2MinoLjx4rCL3NxvXeCLuVzzzwMMqXFcd6X8uIIQLLZ5fgZ-WYsHMX7-MpxIBEhdcpdMQz9DOO0MtYmIpomruyD2qKPe_lCndM2TrWkW3fmMQ/s3455/pexels-zawawi-rahim-13294978.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3425" data-original-width="3455" height="317" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEj8qAHhH7335QsNZWQj1X9fB1o0nFAzY1CohLfyoa6MsjMnluM99_XJjoYKSdHG0BmNxVYUPyesFvCn_2MinoLjx4rCL3NxvXeCLuVzzzwMMqXFcd6X8uIIQLLZ5fgZ-WYsHMX7-MpxIBEhdcpdMQz9DOO0MtYmIpomruyD2qKPe_lCndM2TrWkW3fmMQ/s320/pexels-zawawi-rahim-13294978.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>This umrah felt different for a number of factors:</p><p></p><ol style="text-align: left;"><li>we went on our own. DIY style. we were left to our own device and we left our fate to Allah.</li><li>i went with my husband. the person i prayed for during my last umrah in 2018</li><li>i can feel how close Allah is with me through out the journey</li><li>there were many tests with the sole purpose of teaching me the true meaning of 'sabr'</li><li>my heart yearns to be in tanah suci even more now compared to my last umrah</li></ol><div>I'm feeling very small changes or progress I'm making in my everyday life. It doesnt feel like much, I still feel like I'm not doing enough but I really am trying my very best. I pray that I get to increase my ibadah.</div><div><br /></div><div>One of the revelations or reminders that was given to me was my doa for paradise.</div><div><br /></div><div>In Ramadhan of 2019, I pray to enter paradise through the easiest way possible that is through a husband who is pleased with me. If I was meant to not have a husband, i pray that Allah makes me good enough so that Rasulullah SAW is the one who will invite me to enter jannah. </div><div><br /></div><div>As Jannah is expensive and the roads that leads to jannah is long and hard, Allah put upon me trials after trials which concerns my husband. The way he treated me during umrah was an eye opener. He was unusually impatience and occasional rough when he spoke to me. All I can think about is Allah is testing my patience so all I need to do is sabr because sabr is half of imaan. </div><div><br /></div><div>Being a soft hearted and super tearful person, I did broke down a few times due to his actions. I know that it is especially bad for my husband if he is the one who caused my tears to fall. Every time it happens, i will istighfar and seek forgiveness to Allah for our weaknesses. </div><div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTb2341o7w6TD_-3bNqVw4eyUiClq6CzUuczLcO-mcjHI5tVT6_b6gLyWykUPBlblxrU_RzQHMkmWfm_zHoZgCB1HFrMND38y8QjCdFB2ANY3f7R3H_9iC2NwW-AKIqoYgboKybdeC9BeuH0udcGyGcyErFx7EggZKpQ6KKc6RDtBdlCNQNb1Z5pqfPw/s6000/pexels-bianca-salgado-11565707.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="6000" data-original-width="4000" height="200" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEgTb2341o7w6TD_-3bNqVw4eyUiClq6CzUuczLcO-mcjHI5tVT6_b6gLyWykUPBlblxrU_RzQHMkmWfm_zHoZgCB1HFrMND38y8QjCdFB2ANY3f7R3H_9iC2NwW-AKIqoYgboKybdeC9BeuH0udcGyGcyErFx7EggZKpQ6KKc6RDtBdlCNQNb1Z5pqfPw/w133-h200/pexels-bianca-salgado-11565707.jpg" width="133" /></a></div><br />Now, I am actively looking for ways to get even closer to Allah and not lose this special bond forged with Allah during umrah. May Allah make it easy for me.</div><p></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-85969285000094015172022-09-06T14:50:00.001+08:002022-09-06T14:50:30.179+08:00Gratitude List<p>We went to MATTA fair last Saturday. Bought ourselves cruise tickets that we've been eyeing on for awhile. Can hardly wait for 9th January to come. </p><p>Perhaps, all I need to do is focus on the things that I want and truly have faith that I'm gonna somehow get it. </p><p>We are also planning for Umrah in October. InsyaAllah, if God pleases with us, we get to visit the Holy lands once again. May Allah grant us ease. Ameen</p><p>We are also planning for a trip next year. Hopefully we can finally visit UK and Europe's christmas markets. It has been a dream of mine for years!</p><p>The hadanah case is proceed as plan. There were talks on settlement but we do hope that our counsel is able to maneuver the case to our advantage.</p><p>In the meantime, lets pray and dream for a better days</p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-6382417558602735402022-09-02T15:13:00.000+08:002022-09-02T15:13:09.298+08:00incomprehensible <p><b> I</b> am feeling loss</p><p><b>N</b>ot too sure of the cause</p><p><b>C</b>omparing lives with the most</p><p><b>O</b>bviously not the healthiest choice</p><p><b>M</b>anage to survive the year yet at what cost</p><p><b>P</b>lanning and planning but with no recourse</p><p><b>R</b>emembering remorse</p><p><b>E</b>normous force</p><p><b>H</b>eavy in my heart and my brain across</p><p><b>E</b>nemy to my course</p><p><b>N</b>early troublesome</p><p><b>S</b>itting in lonesome</p><p><b>I</b>mmaterial</p><p><b>B</b>other</p><p><b>L</b>eave me </p><p><b>E</b>mpty</p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-77448266745100262022022-08-12T17:04:00.002+08:002022-08-12T17:04:40.950+08:00How Much Time Do We Have Left?<p>This is a heavy question that crossed my mind recently. My cousin (from my mom's side) passed away a week ago. She was not even 50 years old yet. She got married probably less than 10 years ago. She had no kids of her own. Her death was sudden (at least for me).</p><p>She was a kind soul but sort of a drifter. She has big ideas, loved giving advices and motivation to other but didn't get to accomplish much on her own. I'm not sure where it went wrong but I do hope she was happy and made her love ones happy. Perhaps, at the end of the day, I just hope those who I left behind would say nice things about me. </p><p>I hope they remember me fondly even though I rarely gave them any reason to think of me at all. I prefer to live my life my way. I have a very small circle of friends but I do keep my family close enough.</p><p>If I know how much time I have left in this world, would I act differently? </p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9F1sMzpEyH1r4pe61Lkq6m8cOlgGOnf567zapEiDUoDPGuDigTZSNRzIFCiKzkA_AxDiWc6WQBr8cp7vzwUlM3to6SXulwBpf2-llgcDAIqe8CLVFZHRYI-gRWbA8YA6hysNKdoEQbeKBkUIGgiHwu7wnfr-8cCiYJF_3c8tO_j-9BaAomSEvPPS6Ew/s3543/pexels-giallo-859895.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="2362" data-original-width="3543" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh9F1sMzpEyH1r4pe61Lkq6m8cOlgGOnf567zapEiDUoDPGuDigTZSNRzIFCiKzkA_AxDiWc6WQBr8cp7vzwUlM3to6SXulwBpf2-llgcDAIqe8CLVFZHRYI-gRWbA8YA6hysNKdoEQbeKBkUIGgiHwu7wnfr-8cCiYJF_3c8tO_j-9BaAomSEvPPS6Ew/s320/pexels-giallo-859895.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-70614196120118276382022-07-13T11:53:00.002+08:002022-07-13T11:53:31.773+08:00Gratitude List<p>Its been awhile since I last count my blessing. This could be the reason why I was being so unhappy for the past few days. My menses, being overwhelm by the hormones could be the other thing too.</p><p>Be that as it may, I'm here to count my blessings. I just got promoted. Effective 1 July 2022. After more than 6 years in the company, I'm finally promoted. New pay scale, benefits etc. I am grateful for it all.</p><p>I'm still married. My husband bought me a perfume few weeks ago. That was a nice gesture. I don't use much perfume. I had 2 that I bought myself a few years ago. Still using them. Now I have 3. I like the smell. Not too overwhelming.</p><p>I have nice friends and colleagues. Ever so supportive. Always there whenever I need to socialize. </p><p>My family is still my biggest blessings. I didn't get to go back during Raya Haji a few days ago, but I did cook for the whole family. We got a box of mutton and beef. I made nasi minyak and ayam masak merah and ayam masak kicap</p><p>I'm healthy and well. Have not been exercising for a few days now but I'm well. </p><p>I find it hard to muster my feelings into this list which is not ideal. But it is what it is</p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-80519868049051292752022-07-08T09:20:00.003+08:002022-07-08T09:33:57.141+08:00Creating Magical Moments<p>I've been watching too much Italian related contents on social media and tv. Last nite, I tried to create my own Italian experience by cooking pasta accompanied by Italian songs playing in the background. Its amazing how your brain can transport you to the place you are thinking of only by using your imagination. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHgLJvmrZPSRowPTDkhOVsNTZG1vR-SiUd9uxdNwqzrcd9ZjgNcJAxNhW9vNMzw1GrpIr_jsk9NtFM0YMv08CPw8Lwu2gd3NrU9h6MaJOddZplj8Tzka6g9Z_a2l7KSkjy7M9H_sooZQrv4fO6BsH7YaprMAesLGq1-LFIgUSiQJ6xgiZcqlKQoKnEBQ/s3951/pexels-baryslau-shoot-12622980.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3951" data-original-width="2847" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEiHgLJvmrZPSRowPTDkhOVsNTZG1vR-SiUd9uxdNwqzrcd9ZjgNcJAxNhW9vNMzw1GrpIr_jsk9NtFM0YMv08CPw8Lwu2gd3NrU9h6MaJOddZplj8Tzka6g9Z_a2l7KSkjy7M9H_sooZQrv4fO6BsH7YaprMAesLGq1-LFIgUSiQJ6xgiZcqlKQoKnEBQ/s320/pexels-baryslau-shoot-12622980.jpg" width="231" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>I felt as if my kitchen is wider, more spacious. The feeling stayed with me until today. Its bewildering how we can trained our brain to perceive things in a different way. The formula is to include feelings together with our thoughts. Grateful, happy feelings are so powerful and able to change the way your brain perceived things all around you. I am so grateful that I own a house that has everything that I love in it.</p><p>Whilst I already came to know about the life changing benefit of thinking positively when you couple those thoughts with good feelings, the challenge is really about setting out the time for yourself. Sometimes I feel like 24 hours a day is hardly enough. I'm at work during day time, I need to go home and make dinner afterwards and then set aside some time for physical activity. This can be a real struggle when you are drained after a whole day of work.</p><p>Recently I manage to set aside at least an hour at night for a walk or a visit to the gym. I need to be consistent about it. It does feel good after such activity but I need to find balance because the other night, i overworked myself and I felt so lousy the next day. </p><p>Consistency is key but finding the right balance is also as important. Easier said than done. That's for sure. All we can do is just to give our all every single day.</p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-9036387657703909872022-07-07T15:05:00.003+08:002022-07-08T10:16:33.540+08:00Manifestation (2)<p>I was just reading my first manifestation post. I manifested at least 1 of the item in the list. I had 3 epic trips with the family. Kuantan, Cameron during Raya and last week, we went to Kuching.</p><p>I'm having a bit of a downtime at work and despite that, I'm having a hard time focusing on finishing this post. Nevertheless, let's do a bit of writing and manifesting.</p><p>Its hajj season. Many of those I know were called for hajj this year. I am probably a tiny bit jealous but at the same time it is making me even more determine to save enough money so I get the offer as well. I wish to go for hajj when I am still healthy and fit. I also hope to be able to do korban next year and the year after next till the day I meet my Maker </p><p>Manifesting a healthy and fit physical body. I've been trying to move more, getting more steps in and just sweat. I know the key is being consistent. I've started so I guess I've passed the no. 1 hurdle?</p><p>We were in Penang last week for a meeting. We passed by the pier and saw a Royal Caribbean ship. It was huge. I've thought about taking the star cruise some years back but never actually did it simply because I have no one to go with. We saw the tix on Klook and it was 1.4K per person. Its cheaper than taking a flight to oversea destination that's for sure!</p><p><br /></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjE1UdOPpHeWJR6wjYNu5Aq7ArCqR5mL9uvWEVJJ1JiS_Mnp_HauPmAojX28-Of97vDERhWFozFyAGebSzLnxXDqM8JJwvCqtcaGKRVBt3xIhsmuh-78ZCyeqfm2GY-7ibO12ogoK9JDSezzsd8eiaw6mCO3GId1t9mc9fz9QioSV9_qeNrnNa-Vahojg/s7200/pexels-diego-f-parra-3663915.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4805" data-original-width="7200" height="214" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjE1UdOPpHeWJR6wjYNu5Aq7ArCqR5mL9uvWEVJJ1JiS_Mnp_HauPmAojX28-Of97vDERhWFozFyAGebSzLnxXDqM8JJwvCqtcaGKRVBt3xIhsmuh-78ZCyeqfm2GY-7ibO12ogoK9JDSezzsd8eiaw6mCO3GId1t9mc9fz9QioSV9_qeNrnNa-Vahojg/s320/pexels-diego-f-parra-3663915.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>Been watching a few chick flicks that were shot in Italy and France. Imagine eating my way through Italy. Strolling by Seine River in the evening. Staying in a house within a vineyard. Imagine how wonderful it would be! </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOusaNmFkiBlhSlsZiKKf8iYh99BuOb0MH-M3_aoeU0vSIJRrWnzkYfMn5lzfEjN9dk0App7UWTkJo4eJAb9loNWoqPix4oohUvHS9Ct9DWFaMnCddu-ftIaCyg7cLIf0pCtTrSM4U5ImDUDxsJUlIj3m3BIwSZlB50seEcHzum-lJDR_BCXFBwmjn5A/s4928/pexels-flora-westbrook-2567095.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="3280" data-original-width="4928" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEhOusaNmFkiBlhSlsZiKKf8iYh99BuOb0MH-M3_aoeU0vSIJRrWnzkYfMn5lzfEjN9dk0App7UWTkJo4eJAb9loNWoqPix4oohUvHS9Ct9DWFaMnCddu-ftIaCyg7cLIf0pCtTrSM4U5ImDUDxsJUlIj3m3BIwSZlB50seEcHzum-lJDR_BCXFBwmjn5A/s320/pexels-flora-westbrook-2567095.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><br /></div><br /><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-24163924878959818672022-06-22T14:41:00.002+08:002022-07-06T12:20:00.876+08:00Anthony Bourdain - Story of Depression<p>Yesterday I spent some time watching the Roadrunner, a documentary on Anthony Bourdain. Did you know that he committed suicide? His story is eerily similar to Chester Bennigton, Linkin Park lead singer who also died after hanging himself as well as the famous fashion designer Kate Spade.</p><p>What these 3 have in common is they could have mental illness and suffering from depression. I am sure there are other probable common underlying factors, but to me, being successful comes with one apparent disadvantage. The idea of normalcy in your mind and those around you does not match with your reality. Whether you are mentally prepared to live in your reality when at the same time you keep on observing other people's life and their idea of normal. How does one reconciled these conflicting ideas?</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi35w105pBQbZAk0hOUjRjLwWGoNCR0t3X_C1UrfA94a2Ws1ETorgbficBKGr5v25F0DrXxEZw6OxNkM_KiWdejQ0TaLlcgUkD8gCOslw4f-GG0hEUO4W3L7i6oa8iYq8ujt1IPGJu2O1iCbTyahBWKna5XFP9rlj9wJTRyxJmkIn5IbyYxWoe6lCWqCQ/s640/pexels-vickie-intili-5323336.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="427" data-original-width="640" height="214" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEi35w105pBQbZAk0hOUjRjLwWGoNCR0t3X_C1UrfA94a2Ws1ETorgbficBKGr5v25F0DrXxEZw6OxNkM_KiWdejQ0TaLlcgUkD8gCOslw4f-GG0hEUO4W3L7i6oa8iYq8ujt1IPGJu2O1iCbTyahBWKna5XFP9rlj9wJTRyxJmkIn5IbyYxWoe6lCWqCQ/s320/pexels-vickie-intili-5323336.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p><p>I don't know why I always have this urge to do a deep dive after watching movies that are based on true story or a book and also documentary especially when the subject matter involves possible psychological issues. Am I in the wrong profession or is psychology just my side interest? A question to ponder in deed. I digress.</p><p>The cold hard truth is depression and mental illness is definitely on the rise. I'm not a qualified medical psychologist in any way shape or form, but I feel that mental illnesses are real medical issues. but they are very hard to diagnose and treated because the symptoms are not visible to the eyes. Depressions can take many form and could stem from so many sources. The fact that social media, the very medium that is supposed to bring people together but in reality is driving people further apart could be the main culprit.</p><p>I do feel like social media plays a huge role in the rising number of depressions especially amongst the younger generation. These interactive platforms that constantly feed our mind with celebrity updates, million dollar mansions and lifestyle of those rich and famous will definitely made any normal person green with envy. </p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh61903NjfZ4CAuI87U4G2X_pcDujD5AC6Am7QCTwMGcHPoKeA2hEQcDIGwKWhtVSohppCsh3BQPvHhxwDK9hivIwT7DDznZkuZwzihX6UsaZyqwQ7n5UiS5mET9FxMYyKKJvos9I7M3enmV64Jl3tUxQvWlNn5VqXvS6xjrOz8BnE_-rW_RnVfjzFzzA/s6100/pexels-andrea-piacquadio-972995.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="4067" data-original-width="6100" height="213" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEh61903NjfZ4CAuI87U4G2X_pcDujD5AC6Am7QCTwMGcHPoKeA2hEQcDIGwKWhtVSohppCsh3BQPvHhxwDK9hivIwT7DDznZkuZwzihX6UsaZyqwQ7n5UiS5mET9FxMYyKKJvos9I7M3enmV64Jl3tUxQvWlNn5VqXvS6xjrOz8BnE_-rW_RnVfjzFzzA/s320/pexels-andrea-piacquadio-972995.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p></p><p>I do believe that we should do more to combat this. People need to be aware of the common symptom of mental illness not just for self diagnosis purposes but also to make sure our love ones do not suffer such torment alone. A community drive in the form of mental health awareness campaign should be promoted loudly and widely. Therapy sessions should also be made accessible everywhere and those public/training hospitals that already have those services should do more to promote their services</p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: center;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEPDdhJmRgbK0F_ifYKo1oACMYemXkE28io4ejBgnT1cNN3y_aBA_R3Iv59_IpLxm5v9wVSEpq_cyX2vt9vZ4LxmRSaaehyYUzl0P5DqKolru0AAqvfUq2185mU3HYRrZx9S_Z9Ksvk4ff4y9ghbhrJOkD9oyv_TeEKYF5wegOUlkslMBVyWx5wnrdwg/s640/pexels-anna-tarazevich-6136085.jpg" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="427" data-original-width="640" height="214" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEjEPDdhJmRgbK0F_ifYKo1oACMYemXkE28io4ejBgnT1cNN3y_aBA_R3Iv59_IpLxm5v9wVSEpq_cyX2vt9vZ4LxmRSaaehyYUzl0P5DqKolru0AAqvfUq2185mU3HYRrZx9S_Z9Ksvk4ff4y9ghbhrJOkD9oyv_TeEKYF5wegOUlkslMBVyWx5wnrdwg/s320/pexels-anna-tarazevich-6136085.jpg" width="320" /></a></div><br /><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-72115621468716492372022-06-13T15:28:00.001+08:002022-06-22T14:46:09.624+08:00Kuching 2022<p></p><div class="separator" style="clear: both; text-align: left;"><a href="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-wXNUU75U8zqHhcNcvlhayFiqXuMZPdfBVIjbWV6MwTLV856W0I_wDYHN_DML2jIYej3t8ZounFEA2XVgmpoFZUpDIM65YP4qVDBYJ0A_TYPFNi2cTptzmgydHBGIdM6xwmqIM_cH30Bcr-ZzoGxax7OYCsf4_z7n1WsjZ3ZAhm1kV5Pn2DomU6IZpg/s852/pexels-pat-whelen-4542639.jpg" imageanchor="1" style="margin-left: 1em; margin-right: 1em;"><img border="0" data-original-height="852" data-original-width="640" height="320" src="https://blogger.googleusercontent.com/img/b/R29vZ2xl/AVvXsEg-wXNUU75U8zqHhcNcvlhayFiqXuMZPdfBVIjbWV6MwTLV856W0I_wDYHN_DML2jIYej3t8ZounFEA2XVgmpoFZUpDIM65YP4qVDBYJ0A_TYPFNi2cTptzmgydHBGIdM6xwmqIM_cH30Bcr-ZzoGxax7OYCsf4_z7n1WsjZ3ZAhm1kV5Pn2DomU6IZpg/s320/pexels-pat-whelen-4542639.jpg" width="240" /></a>Last week we went to Kuching, Eddy's hometown. It was my 2nd time in Kuching. Its the first time I went back as married couple. Overall, it was a great trip. We went to many makan places and do things that I really enjoyed that are sightseeing and food-hunting. </div><p></p><p>We spent 5 days and 4 nights. It was tiring. Its been awhile since I properly planned a trip/holiday. I made lots of rookie mistakes. I need to remember to get a mid morning flight to Kuching instead of the first flight out and not to take the last flight back as we will missed the ERL.</p><p>Tiny things, tiny bugs that bug me.</p><p>When is an annoyance turns into a problem? What should be tolerated and what kind of issues need to be addressed quickly?</p><p>Big and heavy problem</p><p>I need to lose a lot of weight. I can see that some of my clothes do not fit me well anymore. I am aiming at least 3 session of gym this week, hopefully i can do more and be consistent about it. Better yet, be obsessed about my fitness journey.</p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-15886188495434498772022-06-03T11:29:00.002+08:002022-06-13T15:41:10.128+08:00It is work if you rather be doing something else<p>I am assessing my life choices. I did this at the start of the year. I dropped the ball for the past 3 months and I need to reassess again.</p><p>Is there something else I would rather do than doing my 9 to 5 jobs? Honestly, I have no idea.</p><p>I gave video making a try last month. It was a process. Not that complicated process but still a process. It can be an easy process, I just need to stick to it. Have a schedule for it. Grind. </p><p>It is hard to keep doing it if you don't really believe in what you are doing. If you don't think you can actually be good at it. [Let's fake it till we make it]</p><p>I need to set a goal. Do at least 20 vids and then see what happened? Perhaps I can use this down time to get some ideas. Work on a script or something.</p><p>Am I manifesting a bigger problem? I hope not. I need to change my mind fast</p><p><br /></p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0tag:blogger.com,1999:blog-1466605852730032883.post-39308094676294948252022-06-03T11:06:00.003+08:002023-01-03T16:10:28.839+08:00Berat Mata Memandang<p> Alhamdulillah. Dah Jumaat dah...</p><p>It was the first full week of me being back in the office. It was somewhat a fulfilling week. My hours are filled with sitting in front of the PC, reading documents, emails and just watching the rest of the team work. </p><p>At least in the office, I dont feel lonely. At times I feel bored. Complacent. Everything is becoming too easy for me.</p><p>Tomorrow we are going to Kuching. The first time going back as a wife. I am slightly excited. At first I was planning to visit a lot of places. But now I am feeling rather tired. I just want to have a relaxing getaway instead.</p><p>I have no expectation. I will just go with the flow. </p><p>I really need to get back on the program. I'm feeling sluggish and I think my performance is not at my 100%. I'm not giving my all to everything I am doing. I'm not doing well for some reason. I need to motivate my self. I was good at pushing my self to doing something, but now... I'm just tired all the time. </p><p><br /></p><p>Just stick to the plan. What is the plan again?</p>Fairyhttp://www.blogger.com/profile/12158034672758209180noreply@blogger.com0