A Boring Life

The past 2 weeks has been too exciting for me. I am grateful that I have this life that is always interesting even though my 9-5 may sound boring but it has been refreshingly thrilling. Unfortunately, the source of that thrill is not pleasant at all however I am glad to be included.

I am looking forward to a boring uneventful weekend but I have 2 appointments lined up of Saturday and Sunday. Now that we have moved up our Mandarin classes, we will have to endure several weeks of Mandarin class on Sunday! We would normally  have an uneventful Sunday evening anyways instead of lazing around or folding clothes, we will be having a 2hr class.

To be honest, I am not that keen. I have always been interested to learn a new language and i did study a bit of Mandarin in law school, i guess, this is a good way to force myself to do something worthwhile with my time?

Today I have been contemplating having a boring life. A quiet boring life where you are able to sit still and still enjoy your life. A life where you don't feel the need to impress others or do what others are doing and chasing. Just a slow boring yet comfortable life. If I want excitement, i can take a road trip or buy a plane tickets to a foreign land but with the war between Iran and Israel worsening, I don't think travelling to anywhere is advisable right now.

Anyhow, I did try to have a quiet weekend. It was a bit hard. I have these thoughts that is nagging me to do something with my brain. To process something other than just staring into the distance blankly. Am I weird? I think Eddy may have the same issue too. Not comfortable keeping still especially with other people around.

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Alhamdulillah. Today is the last blessed Friday of the month of May. We will be having a long weekend since our Agong's birthday falls on Monday. 

This week has been somewhat fulfilling. I had to travel to Penang on Monday. A colleague decided to drove up and we ended up chatting away the whole way. I am glad that I have nice colleagues to work with. 

I just got my car back from the workshop today. They changed the alternator but I dont need to pay for it as it is covered under my warranty. Now it is back sounding like a cat soft purr instead of an angry bull growls.

Work is trickling slowly. I like slow weeks like this. The company is doing well, everyone is busy but everything is under control. 

I get to donate blood this week.  I am grateful that I am healthy enough to be able  to do it. I try to donate at least once a year when the blood bank comes to our office. The committee organizing it was super generous too. We were given a bunch of goodies afterwards.

My family will be gathering this weekend. Although I prefer quiet weekends, I am somewhat looking forward to that. I manage to order some food as requested by my mom.

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Alhamdulillah for today, for all the blessings and gifts that I have received today. Especially the gift of life. We get to wake up in your own house. Have easy access to food and water.  Being healthy, breathing clean air, looking at beautiful blue sky and lush green trees. Living in such a beautiful and peaceful country is something we often take for granted simply because we were born in it. We don't need to work for it or fight for it. All praise to Allah, for all these great blessings.

We had a great night yesterday, Eddy and I. We were supposed to have our Mandarin class but it was cancelled. We bought some provisions and ended up watching the Mission Impossible movies, a marathon. We manage to finished MI 2, 3 and 4 in one sitting. I am glad that I marry my best friend. We enjoyed the same things. We get to do a lot of things together. He was exactly the person I prayed for. I am thankful for that each and every single day.

I went back to Kampar last weekend. We had a great evening in Silverlake. Took my mom shopping. We also get to watch the beautiful sunset. Those moments are so precious.

                 Girls day out

Both of my parents are in amazing health. I am so grateful for that. May they continue to enjoy good health. Ameen..

Manifestation (1) for 2025

 Whatever your mind can conceive, it can achieve.

I started this post in January. Today is Friday, March 14 and I am rewriting it. To be able to manifest, you have to be very clear with what you want. I find that an idea is made clearer with writing. 

Since this is the year where I save my leave of absence and my money, I want to write it so I don't forget. So they will manifest with Allah's will.

So this year, I hope to increase my ASB savings to 100K. The target is to get 300K by 2026.  May Allah ease.

I  hope to take the kids for a holiday next year. I have my reservation on this. I am still contemplating where to go, how much to spent etc.

I want to write. A masterpiece. Like Phantom of the Opera. Like Call the Midwife stories. Warm and heart tugging scripts. A story of love, loss and life. A book of advice, a guide to those in need of guidance.

Looking Back

I had sometime to kill yesterday so I read my blog post from 6 years back. I do this sometime. It reminds me of how far I have come, how my thought process were way back. It help me to put issues I am facing today in a different perspective.

We faced challenges everyday. We solved 10 problems 5 years ago, we have 10 new problems today. Maybe life is about solving problems. Perhaps we should all be grateful that we have problems to solve coz without problems, are you even alive?

I used to have many problems eg. trying to  make ends meet, trying to pay off debts, trying to figure out the best way to navigate my office or trying to save enough just so I can afford a holiday. Alhamdulillah, i manage to get all of that under control. 

I think the problem I have now is not being satisfied with what I have. Just keep on wanting more. I think this stems from being ungrateful with the blessings that I have. I don't even know what are the other things I want and yet I am burdening my thoughts with the feeling of dissatisfaction. 

I need to be grateful for each and every single blessings. Allah has given me more than I've asked. 

This helps. Writing. Evaluating my thoughts and arriving to a conclusion.

May Allah guides all of us.

In Pursuit of Clarity

I am a 41 years old corporate slave living in the outskirt of Kuala Lumpur. I explored the UK for 18 days and now I have a feeling that I no longer interested in being a corporate slave. Being a corporate slave has allowed me to take on that 18-days-life-changing journey, do I now bite the hands that feed me?

But, I still need to eat. Where can I find my next meal then? Do I have other skills that allows me to no longer be a corporate slave? 

I am a trained lawyer but I have this nagging noise in my head that tell me not to let my career define me. My husband told me to write. He said I am a good writer. I guess, blogging is a form of literature too. Maybe I should start with writing articles for the newspaper. 

I don't even read the newspaper that often. I get my news from other sources.

There are so much noise in my mind right now. Fortunately, my current work schedule allows me to sort out my noisy mind.