Work Life Balance

My company tries their best to promote work life balance. We can get flexi hours, we can claim for gym subscriptions, music class and whatever that can promotes a healthy lifestyle.

Last week, we were shaken by the passing of one of our colleague due to heart failure. She was well liked, hardworking and have been serving the company for more than 24 years. We were told that she spent long hours in the office, always working till late in the night. Everyone was sadden by the news and advice were circulating asking everyone to take good care of our own health and work cannot take precedent over our own health.

Since I did not know the deceased, I was not too affected by the news. Working with this company has it owns pros and cons. It is my first local and public listed company. The work culture is very different. Since the company is so big, its hard to know everyone except for colleagues working in the same department.

Although I do mainly corporate works, I hardly feel that I am in a corporate world. Its weird. This company is a down to earth cooperate company in my opinion. I'm still very new to this company so my opinion is a bit limited.

So far, life in this new company has been an adventure and a blessing. I hope to continue learning and give added value to the company in every assignment that is assign to me.

Muslims Ban in America

One for the history book. Less than a week in office, President Trump has issued several moronic Executive Orders. One of it is Muslims Ban. Its a term coined by press i supposed because basically Trump is stopping all entries to US for 7 Muslims Countries. Eventho those entering are US citizens.

Those affected are mostly Muslims travelers, immigrants and refugees. The reason for the "temporary" ban was national security. Trump wants a better vetting system in place for those visiting US from these 7 countries.

People all over the world is protesting. The amount of riot and protest in US is at all time high. Reading the news and watching the videos shared by friends in US, its devastating and surreal. Its like we are all moving backwards.

It is sad really. The land of freedom is not as free as it used to be anymore I guess.

Although Malaysia is not directly affected by the ban, I just feel that the ban is inhumane. What is those who are travelling due to business reason have families in US. They were stranded in airports for hours and according to the Executive Orders, they are to be deported. What would happened to the family?

As fellow human, I could not help but to sympathize with those who are affected. May God grant you ease in these trying times.

Where to find motivation

I'm thinking of a new routine.I'm thinking of joining a gym. To be lean and mean was last year's reso. Did not manage to achieve it for some reason.

Making somewhat the same reso again this year. But I need to put a plan in place to make sure it is possible for me to follow through and eventually achieve it. All I need is to be consistent.

I should just utilize the gym at my apartment. Or just jog up and down the hill. I don't need a gym membership actually. I just need motivation.

What could be my motivation? Looking beautiful? Nah.. I am comfortable in my own skin but I could not deny, I could look much better if my tummy is flatter and my thigh is smaller. Just need 1 little push. Probably a self reward?

Need to think of the best gift for my self now. What could it be? What do I want most? A beach holiday. That's what I want and need right now.

Need to buy a weighing scale first.

Overthinking

It turns out that my boss was just slightly angry at me. Overthinking caused unnecessary stress to me. At the end of the day, all was well.

There is another issue I'm currently facing. Currently overthinking and keep dwelling on it. I should have stop thinking but I will only do it once I figure it out. What should i do about it. Do I face it head on? Should I just let it be?

I should focus on making me happy. What will make me happy?Travelling makes me happy. I'm thinking of Boracay, Phuket, Amsterdam and New Zealand. Perhaps I should plan a solo trip. Some where I really like.

I really like small towns and country side in UK. Quaint coffee shops and book cafes. Cool weather. I'm thinking about the things I love but it still does not make me feel happy.

I need to reset my thoughts pronto.

Justifying Action

I chose to not follow a specific instruction because I feel that by following the instruction, the assignment will not be completed ever.

The fact that I'm defying authority is making me sick to my stomach and I'm hoping that the "authority" will not punish me when she found out about it.

But then again. I have my reason for it. And the reason is to get it done with less hassle. Let see if my argument could stand tomorrow. Its going to be my judgment day.

Coward

Somehow I'm a bit unmotivated. Is that even a word? I'm lacking drive.

I have a few things that I need to sort out with my life and I'm putting everything on hold just because I'm not ready to face reality. Reality is so scary sometimes.

I wish I am braver. Just bite the bullet! Just take the first step! Be bold! Just do it!

Easier said than done. Life is so hard? My choices make my life even harder. Choosing to be a coward makes my life harder.

I need a pushing factor. I need to push my self. Nobody is going to push me. Ugh...

Just get it over with!

Probably it could be easier if I talk it out with someone I could trust. Make plans together.

Let see whether that could work.

2017

The 6th day of 2017. I want to put such high hopes to this year. Make big changes, be a better me but right now I feel a bit tired of it all. There are so many obstacles and I feel that the road is too hard.

My new work place is awesome. The work is hard but I know I'm learning so much. I'm still keeping my positive nature for as long as I could. Nowadays I think I'm just bored. I'm going thru life with much less enthusiasm.

I need to feel enthusiastic again. Perhaps I need a new hobby. New idea. Fresh idea.

Probably I just need fresh air.

Weekend ahead. I'm thankful for that.

iflix - personal review

In case you people in Malaysia has been living under a rock or in a cave, I'm sure you know we now have iflix, To me its a malaysian version of netflix.

Basically its an online portal where you get to watch tv shows, movies, documentaries etc. Its like Astro minus the annoying advertisement. Besides the fact that its is ads free, newly registered unifi user enjoys free iflix access for 12 months.

So, that is how i've been spending my free time. watching so much tv shows and old movies. My current addiction is Victoria (i purposely leave 2 more episodes until the 2nd season starts) and 2 broke girls. This is a comedy and quite entertaining. I'm rooting for the girls to finally be successful.

I just started watching Scandal and finally be able to catch up with Castle. I am eagerly waiting for the new season for Grimm. I tried watching the Witches of East Side but the script is so frustrating that I gave up after the 4th episode.

As for the collections of movies, there were a lot of movies but pretty old. Hope that iflix could update their movies collection soon.

Welcoming 2017

Its December. Almost the end of 2016. I must say that 2016 has been a bitter sweet year for me.

Currently I'm working in a new place. Moved to a new town. Have a new boss, new colleagues, new challenges. Its an adventure. I am learning a lot. Adapting to new setting. Adapting well at the moment. Its been almost 3 months. Initially, it was a huge challenge. A total change of pace. But, I've done it before so, it was not too alien for me.

I'm welcoming 2017. I foresee it to be bumpy. I need to make a plan to smoothen it a bit. M thinking of travelling. A short getaway. Thinking of UK, Europe and even Asia countries.

I have a lot of time on my hand this coming week at home. Perhaps I'm gonna cook a plan for a quick adventure. But nowadays, when I'm at home, I'd be spending time binge watching Iflix. Current favourite, Victoria.

Till next time.

Waiting is Stressful

I have exactly 9 more working days in DB. Last week i get to clean up my drawers. Organized a lil bit so that the transition would be smoother.

Still waiting for my boss to return. Hate that he is away when I feel like I have so much on my plate right now. The fact is that, I do not have much to do so I end up overthinking every single thing. Its driving me crazy.

I need to focus on something else other than my last days in DB. I need a project. So... my bf birthday is coming up. Its next week actually. I'm pretty sad that I can't make a huge fuss out of it coz I'm saving my money for a new place.

The whole situation just stress me out and making me sad. But I still want to make it special for him. I'm not sure how yet. I could postpone the celebration but it wouldn't feel nice not to do anything on his birthday. I think on the day of his birthday we are going to have a simple dinner and simple gift. The actual gift will just have to wait for awhile. It pains me even to type this out.

Writing in this blog is not helping... So, might as well stop for now.

Bye

To Buy For New House

Signed Gamuda's offer 2 weeks ago. Nervous and excited all at the same time. Found a place, a studio apartment. Would be easy enough to manage on my own. near my office. the unit is fully furnished except for the kitchen and there's no tv. i dont watch tv so thats the least of my worry. i cook a lot so i need to figure out the kitchen 1st.

1. stove <400
2. rice cooker <100
3. pots and pans <300
4. dishes and glasses <100
5. ration <100 per week

To Do September

I can foresee that September will fly by so quickly and I have to have a structured plan so that I do not miss out anything.

My mind is a bit scattered thinking of the list of things to do. Office work has been a challenge as well.

Lets compartmentalize everything.

1. Gamuda's offer is coming.
2. Need to figure out new house that would include budget etc
3. After budget is figured out, need to find a place.
4. need to pack and clean up at office
5. need to do handover
6. need to.pack.up at home
7. need to prepare deposit for rental
8. his bday coming up. presents n surprise
9. to list down things to buy for new place
10. to be grateful for the oppurtunity

Intrinsic Value

Today I came across a video by Xandra Ooi. I know her from tv shows I watched when I'm growing up. I do not watch much TVs nowadays.

Anyway, it seems that Xandra Ooi is a motivational speaker now. I'm just getting familiarize with her videos today. So the topic of her video which I watched today revolves around the value of things we choose in life. How much something worth in our life and what is our consideration we take into account when choosing them.

She said that we have the power to choose things that we want in life. For example, the food that we want to eat, clothes we buy, our partner and friends as well as our work. Most of the time, we tend to choose all these things based on their value. Whether they are the most expensive one you could afford. Whether they are from a known brand etc etc. Whether that other half has a stable income or whether he shares your value.

Xandra said that most of the time we tend to ignore what we really want. Which one makes us so happy inside. When we focus on the quality of the things that make us happy, then we are actually looking at the intrinsic value of the things.We spend so much energy focusing on the face value that we forgot to satisfy our inner need by choosing what truly make us happy.

I tend to agree with Xandra. Basically she is teaching people to be happy. To be happy you need to do and focus on the things that make you happy. You have to choose to be happy. Happiness is a choice we need to make everyday. If your job sucks but you are paid a lot of money to do it, will you continue doing it? I won't.

I am the type of person who only do things that would make me truly happy despite the fact that it might not be acceptable by everyone else. Most of my choices are unconventional. Don't get me wrong tho. I have nothing against mainstream just as long as they make me happy, I'm down!

The thought of starting work in a new place and a new boss can be pretty daunting. But learning new things, being at a new place, making new friends are such an adventure for me. Since I got back from Europe, I feel like I am addicted to adventure. I think the best experience comes from activities that make you feel scared, nervous and uncomfortable at the first place and then relief, grateful and so happy  in  the end.

Carpe diam!