Passport renewal
A dress for Wedding reception on 6 March
Save more money for an island gateway - Properly plan and budgeted holiday
Make my self comfortable in my new house - get 1 or 2 bean bags. furniture. figure out wifi options. figure out the kitchen etc. Go to ikea. Do up the house so you get comfortable. Have a corner where I can laze around reading or playing COC
Friday, February 19, 2016
Thursday, February 18, 2016
To Do
Passport is expiring. Buat 2 years ago, pergi Singapore je. What a waste.
How its time to renew. Waiting kat UTC tu la perkara paling melemahkan jiwa raga. Hopefully this time around, waiting won't be a dull affair anymore.
How its time to renew. Waiting kat UTC tu la perkara paling melemahkan jiwa raga. Hopefully this time around, waiting won't be a dull affair anymore.
Diet Plan - Postponed!
No. Can't do it. I need a kitchen to carry out this diet.
Last night I was feeling awful about something and end up eating spicy potato chips with nutella. Not Paleo. Not healthy.
Today my body is all sore due to Tuesday's gym session. So, today I'm gonna hit the gym again. If I can't be consistent in my diet, at least I am hitting the gym as often as I could.
Will see.
Last night I was feeling awful about something and end up eating spicy potato chips with nutella. Not Paleo. Not healthy.
Today my body is all sore due to Tuesday's gym session. So, today I'm gonna hit the gym again. If I can't be consistent in my diet, at least I am hitting the gym as often as I could.
Will see.
Wednesday, February 17, 2016
Food Journal Day 1
Paleo mission day 1 is a failure.
I started the day strong. Drinking lots of water and having a banana for breakfast. Then lunch time I had grill chicken breast but made a mistake of ordering coke zero.
Court matter went quite bad and I was agitated due to absence of caffeine in my system. Had instant iced coffee at a coffee place which is loaded with sugar and creamer.
Going to try to flush things out by drinking water tonight. Can I survive with just water??
Shall tell you all about it tomorrow.
I started the day strong. Drinking lots of water and having a banana for breakfast. Then lunch time I had grill chicken breast but made a mistake of ordering coke zero.
Court matter went quite bad and I was agitated due to absence of caffeine in my system. Had instant iced coffee at a coffee place which is loaded with sugar and creamer.
Going to try to flush things out by drinking water tonight. Can I survive with just water??
Shall tell you all about it tomorrow.
The X-File - What if He Comes Back Begging?
He left you for another girl. You waited on him till finally the girl left him.
Then you left him for another boy. He waited on you till finally the boy left you.
Now both of you are not committed to anyone. The difference is perhaps you are more committed to yourself now that you are single and independent.
He promised to work things out for our future provided that I commit my self to him. I do not feel like committing to anything anymore. The real issue is, if he is able to work things out, is he is the someone you want to spend the rest of your life with?
He is loyal and kind. He understands you. He knows all the good and bad about you yet he accepted you for who you are.But he has also disappoint you and neglect you in the past. He was missing when you need him the most. Sure, he did try to make up for his mistakes and you already forgave his short comings, but can you forget? Will it happen again?
I'm not fine. This matter bothers me. I can't stop thinking about it. I could just ignore him but its not nice. But to keep giving him hope is equally not nice. I told him that I'm putting a stop on this, and I need space. He is not giving me any.
I really don't know what to do.I'm not good with being by my self but I need to learn to handle this.
Then you left him for another boy. He waited on you till finally the boy left you.
Now both of you are not committed to anyone. The difference is perhaps you are more committed to yourself now that you are single and independent.
He promised to work things out for our future provided that I commit my self to him. I do not feel like committing to anything anymore. The real issue is, if he is able to work things out, is he is the someone you want to spend the rest of your life with?
He is loyal and kind. He understands you. He knows all the good and bad about you yet he accepted you for who you are.But he has also disappoint you and neglect you in the past. He was missing when you need him the most. Sure, he did try to make up for his mistakes and you already forgave his short comings, but can you forget? Will it happen again?
I'm not fine. This matter bothers me. I can't stop thinking about it. I could just ignore him but its not nice. But to keep giving him hope is equally not nice. I told him that I'm putting a stop on this, and I need space. He is not giving me any.
I really don't know what to do.I'm not good with being by my self but I need to learn to handle this.
Tuesday, February 16, 2016
Plans
I love making plans. But most plans that realized are my unplanned plans. Still.. I love making plans.
First plan that I am hatching today is my 6 packs leaner meaner me.
1. I have to diet.
This is the toughest one. Diet requires discipline as well as money. Healthy food cause money and a lot of prep time. It is easier for me to stop by a fast food joint and grab a bite. Or snacking on my favourite chips. I have to let go of my chips and instant coffee drinks. I have to let go soft drinks. and sugary snacks like donuts and cheesecakes. So I am reviving my paleo diet. No process food. No sugar. No flour. I think its gonna be tough. Paleo day 1 starts tomorrow.Need to keep a journal as well so that everything moves according to plan.
2. Gym - 1 hour - 3 times a week
Gym will starts today. At least 30 mins each session. But since I want a 6 packs, so I will spent 20 mins cardio, 10 mins stretching and 30 mins abs exercise.
3. To drink and drink and drink lots of water everyday
Another tough one for me coz I dislike water. But I'm gonna do it anyway.
May I remain steadfast and achieve my desired goal.
First plan that I am hatching today is my 6 packs leaner meaner me.
1. I have to diet.
This is the toughest one. Diet requires discipline as well as money. Healthy food cause money and a lot of prep time. It is easier for me to stop by a fast food joint and grab a bite. Or snacking on my favourite chips. I have to let go of my chips and instant coffee drinks. I have to let go soft drinks. and sugary snacks like donuts and cheesecakes. So I am reviving my paleo diet. No process food. No sugar. No flour. I think its gonna be tough. Paleo day 1 starts tomorrow.Need to keep a journal as well so that everything moves according to plan.
2. Gym - 1 hour - 3 times a week
Gym will starts today. At least 30 mins each session. But since I want a 6 packs, so I will spent 20 mins cardio, 10 mins stretching and 30 mins abs exercise.
3. To drink and drink and drink lots of water everyday
Another tough one for me coz I dislike water. But I'm gonna do it anyway.
May I remain steadfast and achieve my desired goal.
2016 Mission, Vision & Resolutions
Mission statement: Healthy, Happy and Humble Me.
Vision: A faithful servant of Allah, a loyal family member, a helpful and efficient employee, a great friend and a world traveler..
Let's do this people. I have been putting this off for awhile. Honestly, I don't feel like I'm in a good place spiritually right now. I feel like I am giving up the reign of my life to circumstances and to those around me. I feel that I am being manipulated and I'm just letting it be. Too lazy to fight it off. I'm just letting things to unfold itself and I am tackling them 1 at a time
Be that as it may, I do have big plans for this year. I pray that God ease things for me. I can already foresee the hindrance I'm gonna face. I pray that Allah give the the strength to overcome each of them.
Vision: A faithful servant of Allah, a loyal family member, a helpful and efficient employee, a great friend and a world traveler..
Let's do this people. I have been putting this off for awhile. Honestly, I don't feel like I'm in a good place spiritually right now. I feel like I am giving up the reign of my life to circumstances and to those around me. I feel that I am being manipulated and I'm just letting it be. Too lazy to fight it off. I'm just letting things to unfold itself and I am tackling them 1 at a time
Be that as it may, I do have big plans for this year. I pray that God ease things for me. I can already foresee the hindrance I'm gonna face. I pray that Allah give the the strength to overcome each of them.
February 2016
The month of February has always been a very short month for me. However, it is also the most eventful month simply because there are long holidays due to Chinese New Year.
Anyway, this post serves as a reminder to me.I am just thinking and planning for this amazing 2016. I have Europe Trip locked in July. I need my annual island holiday. Thinking of exploring Perhentian as I have not been there. I need to explore 1 Asean country too this year.
The main theme for my 2016 is save money to travel and eat.
Talking about eating, I am expanding side ways and I am not loving it. So, the next on the list of things to do this year is to get a six pack for my abs. Sound far fetched at the moment. But that is the goal I want to work on this year.
So to recap in order of priority:
1. Save lots of money
2. Discover Europe
3. Discover Perhentian
4. Discover 1 Asean country
5. Have a flat and sexy six pack abs
I am continuously saving money. I am collecting the Green Notes as 1 of the method. I am also putting away RM1 each day starting this month. I also set aside RM50 per month. As of now I have RM176. I am getting ang pow as well, so I should be able to save at least RM200 this month.
I would need RM1,000 for an island holiday. Once I manage to set aside RM1000, perhentian, here I come!!
Wednesday, December 30, 2015
My Fear Factor
As we are approaching the end of 2015, I could not help but to reflect on all the things that happened this year.
The year started slowly but surely I made improvements in multiple areas in my life. Career wise I could feel my faith became stronger and I was happier. I was at the peak of my faith in July. I was at my happiest and most content.
However, things started to shake in August onward and I could feel I was spiraling down a wormhole. Its a slow spiral downwards and I could feel that I am still spiraling. I am fighting the spiral coz I know what waits for me at the bottom but somehow.. just somehow I feel that i do not have enough strength to fight.
I was happy at my comfort zone for 3 months then I felt the need to shake things up. Taking risk, doing things I'm not suppose to just for the sake that I am tired and bored staying stagnant.I fear that the risk I took is not worth it. It has no value. Its useless.
I could justify all my actions may it be right or wrong but I could not accept he fact that I keep doing things I'm not supposed to when I am very much aware of the consequences.
Did I stop to care of the consequences? No
Why do I keep doing it? Do I do it to feel accepted? Wanted? Desired? Yes
I am being accepted and wanted but by those who are undesirable. I fear that I'm selling my self short. I fear that my personality made me an easy target to be taken advantage at.
I feel the need to focus on my desire. So my 2016 would be to focus on things that made me happy and content.
I really really need to spend some time thinking about this.
Last year was about faith. This year I want to focus on something else but at the same time maintain my faith at a certain level.
What is that something else? What makes me happy and fearless?
1. Financial Freedom - have a sturdy saving account.i.e to have at least a surplus of RM5000 before end of 2016 (RM420 per month)
2. Travel to at least 2 international destination in 2016 - Indonesia - to visit Reni and perhaps Vietnam for the coffee scene. Krabi/Koh Samui - islands hop
3. Fall madly in love with my life. Beautiful, healthy and happy.
The year started slowly but surely I made improvements in multiple areas in my life. Career wise I could feel my faith became stronger and I was happier. I was at the peak of my faith in July. I was at my happiest and most content.
However, things started to shake in August onward and I could feel I was spiraling down a wormhole. Its a slow spiral downwards and I could feel that I am still spiraling. I am fighting the spiral coz I know what waits for me at the bottom but somehow.. just somehow I feel that i do not have enough strength to fight.
I was happy at my comfort zone for 3 months then I felt the need to shake things up. Taking risk, doing things I'm not suppose to just for the sake that I am tired and bored staying stagnant.I fear that the risk I took is not worth it. It has no value. Its useless.
I could justify all my actions may it be right or wrong but I could not accept he fact that I keep doing things I'm not supposed to when I am very much aware of the consequences.
Did I stop to care of the consequences? No
Why do I keep doing it? Do I do it to feel accepted? Wanted? Desired? Yes
I am being accepted and wanted but by those who are undesirable. I fear that I'm selling my self short. I fear that my personality made me an easy target to be taken advantage at.
I feel the need to focus on my desire. So my 2016 would be to focus on things that made me happy and content.
I really really need to spend some time thinking about this.
Last year was about faith. This year I want to focus on something else but at the same time maintain my faith at a certain level.
What is that something else? What makes me happy and fearless?
1. Financial Freedom - have a sturdy saving account.i.e to have at least a surplus of RM5000 before end of 2016 (RM420 per month)
2. Travel to at least 2 international destination in 2016 - Indonesia - to visit Reni and perhaps Vietnam for the coffee scene. Krabi/Koh Samui - islands hop
3. Fall madly in love with my life. Beautiful, healthy and happy.
Wednesday, December 16, 2015
Eating From Baby Diapers (Viral Post)
Since yesterday I have seen shares regarding a baby shower in Malaysia that made guests use diapers as plates for their food. Yes. Baby diapers as plates instead of paper plates or plastic plates or glass plates.
Whatever!
Most commentators are just disgusted with the image. But I think they are disgusted by their own thoughts and imaginations. Most people are simple minded really. Diapers are for poops and not food. Simple right? You do not need high education to arrive to that simple conclusion.
I decided to write on this because I just don't share the same reactions. I don't feel disgusted. If I was at the baby shower and that is how they are serving their food, I would not mind it at all. After all, its baby diapers that are clean and unused.
There are other argument stating how expensive it is to use diapers instead of the usual paper plates, how wasteful it is, how inappropriate it is how it is not what the Islam teaches bla bla bla.. You can argue till the cows come home but its their freaking baby shower, its their freaking money so let them do what they want. People on the social media are sharing the posts just to curse and say bad things to the event organizer when they did not even invite you to the event. You were not ask to eat using diapers.
Why bother la wei???
Seriously people. I see videos of Syrians kids picking up bread crumbs on the ground. The crumbs covered in dusts and God knows what. They put it in their mouth. It is still food to them. Who give a shit about that?? Only a handful of us shares the video.
There are bigger issue to think about, to discuss, to share. Start by looking into your own personal affairs. Are they in order? If they are not, why are we meddling in someone else's life? Why?
Give it a rest people. Live your life and stop being so sensitive to petty issues.
Whatever!
Most commentators are just disgusted with the image. But I think they are disgusted by their own thoughts and imaginations. Most people are simple minded really. Diapers are for poops and not food. Simple right? You do not need high education to arrive to that simple conclusion.
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I decided to write on this because I just don't share the same reactions. I don't feel disgusted. If I was at the baby shower and that is how they are serving their food, I would not mind it at all. After all, its baby diapers that are clean and unused.
There are other argument stating how expensive it is to use diapers instead of the usual paper plates, how wasteful it is, how inappropriate it is how it is not what the Islam teaches bla bla bla.. You can argue till the cows come home but its their freaking baby shower, its their freaking money so let them do what they want. People on the social media are sharing the posts just to curse and say bad things to the event organizer when they did not even invite you to the event. You were not ask to eat using diapers.
Why bother la wei???
Seriously people. I see videos of Syrians kids picking up bread crumbs on the ground. The crumbs covered in dusts and God knows what. They put it in their mouth. It is still food to them. Who give a shit about that?? Only a handful of us shares the video.
There are bigger issue to think about, to discuss, to share. Start by looking into your own personal affairs. Are they in order? If they are not, why are we meddling in someone else's life? Why?
Give it a rest people. Live your life and stop being so sensitive to petty issues.
Tuesday, December 15, 2015
Touched
I am touching a life, helping it to grow and change for the better in sha Allah. Perhaps I am also touching a heart in the process. In return, his small gestures touches my heart. A finger under my eye, to remove a fallen eyelash. A thumb on my cheek, to remove bread crumbs (i am a messy eater)
The thing is I could fall for this guy. But my guard is so high up right now.I need more than small gestures. I need more than love and happiness. I need an everlasting love. Love till the end of time the end of days. Only God could provide me with such love. No man posses such infinite love.
Why am I craving for that love? Maybe because deep in my heart, I know I could attain it. I just have to increase in my worships, my good deeds, my love for Allah and Prophets.
I just need to be consistent. Be patient. Keep praying and believe in His mercy.
The thing is I could fall for this guy. But my guard is so high up right now.I need more than small gestures. I need more than love and happiness. I need an everlasting love. Love till the end of time the end of days. Only God could provide me with such love. No man posses such infinite love.
Why am I craving for that love? Maybe because deep in my heart, I know I could attain it. I just have to increase in my worships, my good deeds, my love for Allah and Prophets.
I just need to be consistent. Be patient. Keep praying and believe in His mercy.
Monday, December 14, 2015
Help
I am currently assisting a friend in changing his life. I pray that God grant me the strength and ability to properly assist him.
Others would probably called me crazy. To be so willing in helping a person whom I just knew for a couple of months. I am the type of person who do not think too long and too hard when it comes to helping people.
Once my heart whispers, help them coz I could afford to help them, just do it. Don't think of what I will get in return. Just help because you could.
Now my mind wants to think long and hard about helping him further due to what transpired yesterday. Being treated like a piece of nothing for a few minutes made me wonder. But I am not wondering too long. Coz its a total waste of time.
I am just gonna do what I would for as long as I could.
Others would probably called me crazy. To be so willing in helping a person whom I just knew for a couple of months. I am the type of person who do not think too long and too hard when it comes to helping people.
Once my heart whispers, help them coz I could afford to help them, just do it. Don't think of what I will get in return. Just help because you could.
Now my mind wants to think long and hard about helping him further due to what transpired yesterday. Being treated like a piece of nothing for a few minutes made me wonder. But I am not wondering too long. Coz its a total waste of time.
I am just gonna do what I would for as long as I could.
Wednesday, November 18, 2015
Menjauh
Menjauh dari Allah. Menjauh dari segala hal.
Rasa makin menjauh dari semua hal semua benda semua orang. Now aku paling paling malas nak bercakap dgn housemates. They are nice girls a definite blessings from God. but I do not know why, I have less and less interest to talk to them and spend time with them.
Its been awhile since I go back to my hometown. Anna is at home currently. Mom is busy with her business. Dad is minding his own. Yus is pregnant. So I spent most weekends at Wah's since she just had a new baby and mom has not see the baby yet. Its been at least 2 weeks. Its weird but that's mom. She can hold on to grudges forever. I pray that Allah make it easy for her to let go of the past and just move on.
Its also been awhile since I have a meaningful conversation with Ridzuan. Its all mundane and routine questions. There are frictions here and there but nothing serious or major. I found that some of his thoughts are repetitions and they just annoying.
I do not feel lonely tho. I always have friends when I need to talk to someone. I have my work to go to. I have my COC. I have my bed and amazing pillows. Thank God for all of that!
I think I need a bigger bed LOL!
Probably a tatami mattress. Am i losing it??
I hope not
Rasa makin menjauh dari semua hal semua benda semua orang. Now aku paling paling malas nak bercakap dgn housemates. They are nice girls a definite blessings from God. but I do not know why, I have less and less interest to talk to them and spend time with them.
Its been awhile since I go back to my hometown. Anna is at home currently. Mom is busy with her business. Dad is minding his own. Yus is pregnant. So I spent most weekends at Wah's since she just had a new baby and mom has not see the baby yet. Its been at least 2 weeks. Its weird but that's mom. She can hold on to grudges forever. I pray that Allah make it easy for her to let go of the past and just move on.
Its also been awhile since I have a meaningful conversation with Ridzuan. Its all mundane and routine questions. There are frictions here and there but nothing serious or major. I found that some of his thoughts are repetitions and they just annoying.
I do not feel lonely tho. I always have friends when I need to talk to someone. I have my work to go to. I have my COC. I have my bed and amazing pillows. Thank God for all of that!
I think I need a bigger bed LOL!
Probably a tatami mattress. Am i losing it??
I hope not
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