Manifestation (4)

 Alhamdulillahhirabbila'lamin (all praises to the Almighty Allah, the creator of the universe)

The last manifestation was back in January 2023 (read here). I manifested 3 out of 5 and the other 2 is in progress insyaAllah.

1. A trip abroad with the kids. We took the kids to Thailand early this year. We went to Hatyai and Koh Lipe
2. Increased sedeqah jariah. Been donating to all the charities in support of Palestinians' causes.
3. Travel wish Europe, UK, Uzbek - We went to Uzbek last year in June and insyaAllah, we will travel to UK this year on Christmas.
4. I still struggle with Tahajjud but alhamdulillah, the Ramadhan sahur schedule is still intact. I managed to wake up earlier for a short Tahajjud before Fajr with my husband
5. With regards to retirement savings, it is still in progress. I am automating my monthly savings but I wish to save more this year. 

That's the update from my last manifestation list. Its the end of the business day and I am still in the office thinking about what do I want to achieve other than the 2 mentioned above.

1. I want to go to Hajj as soon as I am able. The priority is to  deposit more money into my Tabung Haji Savings. Increase cash savings to 100K by 2025.

2. Because I already made plan for a 16 days trip to UK, it doesn't feel right to plan for another one before letting the first one completed successfully first. Just a self created stumbling block. But I did discuss a few other destinations with my husband. Switzerland is high on the list as well as the Maldives and other parts of Indonesia.

3. I want to be a qualified Company Secretary (CS). It is another branch within my current department. 

4. Bowl my first 200. I've been training but I have not been improving much. I need to train more.

5. Be a kinder and more loving person

I am struggling to list down the above today. I take it as a good thing. Nothing much matters these days. There are civil unrest, wars and famine everywhere. If only I can manifest freedom for Palestine and world peace. Might as well put it on the list.

6. Free Palestine and world peace!

Gratitude, Visualize. Manifest!

Thinking Out Loud

Its been awhile. I had a good conversation with my husband last weekend. But then again, they are just passionate discussion about the current state of Malaysian's transportation infrastructure. I was thinking out aloud as to the many interesting places that tourist can visit in Malaysia if it is being packaged correctly. We have beautiful mosques, historical places and amazing food scenes all over Malaysia. Most tourists would just end up in KLCC and Genting Highlands when Malaysia has so much more to offer.

It gave me the idea to become a tour operator but the traffic condition and transportations options in Malaysia is just not ideal. I could however start small. Cater for a small family instead of a bus load of passengers with fussy needs just to try out. Is this my calling? In hospitality? I'm not hospitable nor warm but I am a traveler and I love Malaysia. When I go through the app WithLocals, i realised that the trait that needed to be a good travel guide is lacking in me. I don't have to be a good travel guide is friendliness, sensitivity and hospitability. I know my strength and weakness. So that's that.

Yesterday, a colleague confided in me and told me that she is considering to take an offer by a competitor. A smaller yet stable competitor. She wants to strengthen her capabilities and gained more experience and just be better. She still has that wants but not me. It makes me wonder, is there something wrong with me for not wanting what she wants?

Its not that I am afraid to make a change. Its just that I feel there is no need for it. I am quite happy where I am. I don't need more than this to be happy. Is it wrong to be contend? My company is one of the best engineering and construction company in Malaysia. I am just happy to be part of the team. 

I guess different person has different need to be happy in life.

Syawal

Its the 6th day of Syawal. I am currently back in office. A lot of work waiting, pending, haunting. The mood is truly grim but trying to make the best of it. 

Noteworthy updates other than Raya stuff is that Iran launched an attack to Israel. Although its performative, it enlighten us of our real friends and foe. Jordan and Egypt both intercepted Iran's missiles. Does it not show their stand on this war? Such 2 faced hypocrites. Houthis in Yemen did launch their own missiles into Israel. 

The Israel's paper on 12 April declares that Israel has lost the war. Yet, Palestinians are still not allowed to go home. Many was forcefully evacuated. 

All my worries and problems seems so small compared to what our brothers and sisters in Palestine is going through. 

Although we had a happy Syawal this year, it seems less sweet. Every endevour seems less meaningful these days. I feel like the worst is yet to come, but it is coming. The only thing that we have, is Allah almighty to lead us the way.

May all of us be worthy enough to obtain His guidance to get through all of this.