Muslims Ban in America

One for the history book. Less than a week in office, President Trump has issued several moronic Executive Orders. One of it is Muslims Ban. Its a term coined by press i supposed because basically Trump is stopping all entries to US for 7 Muslims Countries. Eventho those entering are US citizens.

Those affected are mostly Muslims travelers, immigrants and refugees. The reason for the "temporary" ban was national security. Trump wants a better vetting system in place for those visiting US from these 7 countries.

People all over the world is protesting. The amount of riot and protest in US is at all time high. Reading the news and watching the videos shared by friends in US, its devastating and surreal. Its like we are all moving backwards.

It is sad really. The land of freedom is not as free as it used to be anymore I guess.

Although Malaysia is not directly affected by the ban, I just feel that the ban is inhumane. What is those who are travelling due to business reason have families in US. They were stranded in airports for hours and according to the Executive Orders, they are to be deported. What would happened to the family?

As fellow human, I could not help but to sympathize with those who are affected. May God grant you ease in these trying times.

Where to find motivation

I'm thinking of a new routine.I'm thinking of joining a gym. To be lean and mean was last year's reso. Did not manage to achieve it for some reason.

Making somewhat the same reso again this year. But I need to put a plan in place to make sure it is possible for me to follow through and eventually achieve it. All I need is to be consistent.

I should just utilize the gym at my apartment. Or just jog up and down the hill. I don't need a gym membership actually. I just need motivation.

What could be my motivation? Looking beautiful? Nah.. I am comfortable in my own skin but I could not deny, I could look much better if my tummy is flatter and my thigh is smaller. Just need 1 little push. Probably a self reward?

Need to think of the best gift for my self now. What could it be? What do I want most? A beach holiday. That's what I want and need right now.

Need to buy a weighing scale first.

Overthinking

It turns out that my boss was just slightly angry at me. Overthinking caused unnecessary stress to me. At the end of the day, all was well.

There is another issue I'm currently facing. Currently overthinking and keep dwelling on it. I should have stop thinking but I will only do it once I figure it out. What should i do about it. Do I face it head on? Should I just let it be?

I should focus on making me happy. What will make me happy?Travelling makes me happy. I'm thinking of Boracay, Phuket, Amsterdam and New Zealand. Perhaps I should plan a solo trip. Some where I really like.

I really like small towns and country side in UK. Quaint coffee shops and book cafes. Cool weather. I'm thinking about the things I love but it still does not make me feel happy.

I need to reset my thoughts pronto.

Justifying Action

I chose to not follow a specific instruction because I feel that by following the instruction, the assignment will not be completed ever.

The fact that I'm defying authority is making me sick to my stomach and I'm hoping that the "authority" will not punish me when she found out about it.

But then again. I have my reason for it. And the reason is to get it done with less hassle. Let see if my argument could stand tomorrow. Its going to be my judgment day.

Coward

Somehow I'm a bit unmotivated. Is that even a word? I'm lacking drive.

I have a few things that I need to sort out with my life and I'm putting everything on hold just because I'm not ready to face reality. Reality is so scary sometimes.

I wish I am braver. Just bite the bullet! Just take the first step! Be bold! Just do it!

Easier said than done. Life is so hard? My choices make my life even harder. Choosing to be a coward makes my life harder.

I need a pushing factor. I need to push my self. Nobody is going to push me. Ugh...

Just get it over with!

Probably it could be easier if I talk it out with someone I could trust. Make plans together.

Let see whether that could work.

2017

The 6th day of 2017. I want to put such high hopes to this year. Make big changes, be a better me but right now I feel a bit tired of it all. There are so many obstacles and I feel that the road is too hard.

My new work place is awesome. The work is hard but I know I'm learning so much. I'm still keeping my positive nature for as long as I could. Nowadays I think I'm just bored. I'm going thru life with much less enthusiasm.

I need to feel enthusiastic again. Perhaps I need a new hobby. New idea. Fresh idea.

Probably I just need fresh air.

Weekend ahead. I'm thankful for that.