Looking Back

I had sometime to kill yesterday so I read my blog post from 6 years back. I do this sometime. It reminds me of how far I have come, how my thought process were way back. It help me to put issues I am facing today in a different perspective.

We faced challenges everyday. We solved 10 problems 5 years ago, we have 10 new problems today. Maybe life is about solving problems. Perhaps we should all be grateful that we have problems to solve coz without problems, are you even alive?

I used to have many problems eg. trying to  make ends meet, trying to pay off debts, trying to figure out the best way to navigate my office or trying to save enough just so I can afford a holiday. Alhamdulillah, i manage to get all of that under control. 

I think the problem I have now is not being satisfied with what I have. Just keep on wanting more. I think this stems from being ungrateful with the blessings that I have. I don't even know what are the other things I want and yet I am burdening my thoughts with the feeling of dissatisfaction. 

I need to be grateful for each and every single blessings. Allah has given me more than I've asked. 

This helps. Writing. Evaluating my thoughts and arriving to a conclusion.

May Allah guides all of us.

In Pursuit of Clarity

I am a 41 years old corporate slave living in the outskirt of Kuala Lumpur. I explored the UK for 18 days and now I have a feeling that I no longer interested in being a corporate slave. Being a corporate slave has allowed me to take on that 18-days-life-changing journey, do I now bite the hands that feed me?

But, I still need to eat. Where can I find my next meal then? Do I have other skills that allows me to no longer be a corporate slave? 

I am a trained lawyer but I have this nagging noise in my head that tell me not to let my career define me. My husband told me to write. He said I am a good writer. I guess, blogging is a form of literature too. Maybe I should start with writing articles for the newspaper. 

I don't even read the newspaper that often. I get my news from other sources.

There are so much noise in my mind right now. Fortunately, my current work schedule allows me to sort out my noisy mind.